16 dec 2011

just left 15 days then 2012 is coming, so fast a year have past...

during a year what you have do? what you have achieve?

what you have done?

me? haha... quiet a lot too...

many thing is happening...even now too...our relationship is getting closer and closer, although during this year alot of thing is happen..

let see after Chinese new year...what are the result..

yesterday i had a nicer dream ever...can say it until now... how to say it..but now starting getting abit blur blur...so i better write it down before reli gone..  i goes back to secondary school.. but she also at secondary school, included all my friend and her friend too... the feeling in the dream are just warm, and i feel that i can feel the feeling during that time...how to say the feeling i have...erm...reli just hard...just i duno to describe it...not happy, and for sure nt sad too...just enjoy, and i can i wish to get into the dream again...

in the dream i meet her, in secondary school... impossible rite!! cos i different school with her.. but in the dream i can see her face again...when she smile it...that moment..enjoy wot her friend...run here and there, just like a kids...what i doing in that time? haha

i just watching it...saw her when she at secondary school...erm...the rest is sudenly my alarm wakes me up...F*** the alarm...why always wake me up during the nice part...i miss the dream so much..do you know that...although my secondary school are different..but in the dream are just prefect..

TQTQ...to you...and giving me alot learning during this year...i have grow up in some part...but still have many still need improve.. MY EQ have improve or nt le???

you tell me...

lastly...i wish tell you something...

that is ...

my brithday is near, ready my present.. : p

saw the last part.... i love you....i mean it(serious face)

28 nov 2011

Yesterday i went to mid valley watch movie, long time no watch at night...really unforgettable.

yesterday i go watch this movie, i know i know, this movie is on cinema for a long time but why now only go watch it, i like it ah...BLEK....

whole movie is ok la..but few part are unforgettable, because why?

you wan to know which part?

haha...dun tell you all better...

 is on railway d, what it say make me remember it back what she say.

just saw what she write on her blog, rely rely so po lai .....

you know what i mean, i promise to you that i will follow the promise i gave it to you...wont forget it...you  also ah....dun ever forget it ah..if not.....you will know the Consequence 

haha...

you never say it on blog d but you say it too...i will say it same to you..

i love you

another trick for you, guess it

一个黑大汉，腰插两把扇， 走一步，扇几扇。(猜动物）

25 nov 2011

This 2 day i busy helping move to new house..

me move to new house??

sure no d..i dun have so much money to move to new house, during this 2 day i was helping pearl and her family move furniture to her new house, it was a lot thing to pack...need 2 day to pack all the thing to the new house.

i enjoy with the process with her, i dun mind we not going out dating or what. but i can be with her i already happy for it...the feeling is different...and i enjoy it so much.

her new house is big and nice, especially her new room..i like it...

next time my house will be like tat too, but will be more bigger..can put a lot of thing that we both like.

during this 2 day i know i have make few mistake and make her angry to me, i sorry about it....most of the mistake i shouldn't do it...but i still do it.

sorry for it...i really sorry for it.

有一隻熊走過(猜四個字成語)

8 nov 2011

today i receive a mail again...when i 1st saw it, i know(haiz) again...not sien izzit?

duno he...started i dun wish to tell her about this mail i receive, dun wish to let her know about this d. because when she know about this, it will make the day down d.. but i decided to tell her about this mail...

i know you ask me dun listen what he say or what he write, but what he write is just wish to punch him in the face. i know myself..

i should not ask you those thing because i know after i ask about it, your mood will down, although you say you ok, but i saw it and i can feel it, you are not ok with it. 

i know my month is not really how to turn right or left, just go straight to the point, hurting people straight away. without think about any consequences, each time also like that, i trying to change myself because of that, but i not lie to you also...really d..

that is truth...

i know you not so believe on me about this thing.. but what i can do is just put my faith to you, do all the action let you see it that i still have believe in you...it need time to prove that, trust is not easy to make, i know..break it is easy within few second can do it.

that why i will prove it to you let you believe that i believe on you....

dun say you break your promise, i know that sometime i will break my promise also..i know those feeling, is not rely good.. but i understand of it....those thing i pass through it be4.. and i know how it feeling on you too...

all i can say is sorry, i know sorry no cure... but i will still say sorry, sorry for everything i do, what i say, what i see, what i hear, and just everything of it.

i may not be prefect, may not be attention to detail, may not be caring enough. just what i will say,(***)

that all i can say...

i know other will see my blog too, but i know love is not easy to say it out, maybe you all will say me duno what is love, but do you know what i get through with her through to this one and a half year relationship. a lot...reli a lot ....

mayb i say it out you all also dun believe it, but i have been go through it...and i know still got a lot of challenge to go..not easy, will be hard...i know that too...exam exam exam...pass 1 by 1...

sorry for just now what i ask, i know it will hurt you and you will think that i still not believe on you..

what i wish to say now is(i love you)    

2 nov 2011

Really starting seldom write blog le lo..

dun ask me why d, just when i have the mood to write then i will write it down...

what happen, a lot thing happen....really a lot....

wanna say it out, dun wish too...

who am i?

do i like keep myself(内向), maybe that is me, who am i...

i be positive all the way, positive...

what to do...

other will stab me at the back...do i do wrong anything?

i aso duno...

haiz..dun say about it, now i just do bek my own part for it..

am i doing to great and jealous by other people?

i duno also...

ok then..end...end it....

remember this song...k?

remember the lyric oh...

this 1 you can keep it on your mind d oh..permanent...dun think wrongly, dun say sorry le...

i know you will read my blog...

give you a 谜语:

农夫养10头牛，只有19只角，为什么？

let you figure it out the answer....

tell me next time the answer la...

i sure you can't get the answer.. 

18 oct 2011

2day duno what happen to me...like every bad thing 1 shot happen to me and i cant even control my temper today...

my company want to extend my employment today...after i hear what they say the fault i make, i cant even believe on that, i never do that but what they is like my fault, i not agree on that, not even agree on it...

i not happy with the result of extend my confirmation...because of those reason i extend....not fair at all.

not even hear my explanation...what to do, depend on me...tahan la....

then after the thing happen, another come out again, this angry not cool yet another have come out....walao...my temper just bust out...

i have a bit over to her, i know...i ask so many question, this and that...

not i not believe on it, just that guy i reli tot he duno anything, but what he say just like know what happening.

WTF.....now i have a reli confused now..what should i do now...what should i do now...

now she sure is thinking i not believe on her, but i not, because of my temper make me cant even think properly..2nd time happen already...reli useless ....useless...useless ah....

now my head is just reli reli fan fan fan fan fan fan..........ahhh....

tot 2nite i can chat with her about this, but now, on what happen just now...dun think so...now i duno should tell her ornt...about my work...if i told, what her will react? 

sorry for my uncontrollable temper just now...reli sory for my temper...i cant even control my little temper....reli no use...sorry... 

11 oct 2011

2day i wake up as usual, (6am), i working at 8am, why i so early wake up?

haha...because i tis time wake up then can go out, but 2day just lay on bed until 7am oli go downstair.

not use to it. one day oli already not use to it..

YOU YOU YOU...i'm saying you...looking at my blog la...bite you ah... blek...

if you dare come bite me... :P

bite me 

bite me 

bite me

bite me

bite me

10 oct 2011

you know that 2day you sleep that time you have making 梦话, although i cant hear what you say, but i know that something have bother your sleeping, making you have bad dream.

i beside you, mayb i cant feel what you feel, but i know that you are disapointed, scare, sad, not happy...this kind of thing making u down.

what can i say? what can i do?

i pray for you, this thing will settle soon, just be patient...not who, not when, just something special will happen....and i will be beside you that time....

dun worry...

k???

10 OCT 2011

Today is worry day, how say.yesterday midnite,she wake up at the midnite of time, she gastric again...i didn't saw the message, until i suddenly wake up from bed, duno why i wake up middle of nite, then i go take my phone and see, got 1 message..@@

i wonder who will send me message during middle of night, then i open it up, found up that she message me at midnite, so late not yet sleep? so bad lo...bad bad kids, i reply the message it. i was worrying so late she not yet sleep, sure something is happen.

After that i abit kind cannot sleep also. hoping time pass faster morning, then is morning , i go to her house fetch her. i was not ask what happen, cos when i look at her i know if is she sad, not happy, no energy or anything. i know she very sleepy, so i not asking her anything. just let her rest at car 1st.

rest as long as she want,  she have few time gastric at nite, maybe de to nite hungry, making her grastric.

bibi...you oh...i'm healthy le, you so weak le...come win me back, healthy then me lo...you win i will listen to what you want. promise??

if you see this, tell me la...promise...

2 Oct 2011

this song remind me alot...

it remind me when before we been in relationship, until we in relationship, until now too.

dunno why, when i hear this so, it gan dong me...hear it remind so much think, all the picture like slide show flash in my mind.

when before i in relationship with her, we was colleague, that time i shy shy infront her d, scare talking with her, but....now can see lo, she my GF lo...haha...reli unexpected rite???

how to say?? erm...when we meet face to face, we have little chat between us, but in sms that time, is alot..now?? both also have it...haha...funny le...

reli alot alot alot thing flash into my mind after i hear this song....

TQ TQ...to You...

but i promise is promise, no matter how much i busy is, i still will accompany you go shopping, watch movie, dinner, pak tou, gai gai, go travel and many many more oh... 

28 sep 2011

yesterday i was piss off...why?? dun wish to tell...do and do and do and do but still wrong...at last used back the 1st to do..that time reli beh tahan, but i control my temper, not show it in front her...

when finish work,i go meet her, because why, when i meet her my temper will cool down, not cool down, is gone.. every time also the same. 来的快去的快....

yesterday she say have something to tell me, i wonder what is it..actually is say i perasan, why?

because my last blog have mention that (if you read my blog tell me izzit i'm perasan).  haha, i duno that she so fast read my blog already, cant guess it..

this time i dun1 write too much...

let me ask you another question...

a day, a mother buy 2 pair of underwear, but this mother have 3 children, name is DO, RE,and ME, mother give the 2 underwear to Do and RE, left who not yet get it??? tell me...

26 sep 2011

today as usual i fetching her to school, 2day she wearing tank top to school and bring the jacket to school also, long time didn't see her bring the jacket to school le oh....hehe

as usual she will sleep a while before start school, then she go for school and i going for my work. 2day duno is lucky or what le, she forget to bring her house key to school actually she forget and put it in my car for few day edi, 2day she remember it that she put it in my car, but she no take it down when she get off the car,then i promise her that i will bring it t school later during my lunch time.

when i break that time, i get her call, but her voice just a bit down, because normally i will hear different voice tone from her, and i thinking something are wrong with her today, so i make a decisions to find out lo. 

before she get in to my car i look at her face, and i know that she lose her mood, when she get in to my car, i ask her what happen, then she tell me allot, and i know what is happening now.

why my friend will treat me like that?? i sure you will asking yourself now... how to say it...erm...human selfishness ..every person deep inside of them self will have a thing call selfishness...erm, i duno how to describe it d..just a experience for it, then you will grow up for it, because you have experience it. thinking all the thing is positive way. is a good positive thinking.

you have high EQ oh, remember that, you say that you will fa pi qi just with me oli..haha...i duno le..if i say no you will believe?? if i say yes you will believe?? haha...both i also dun wan say it...Blek... let you guess your self.. i not mind you fa pi qi infront me d, because i have positive thinking of it..hehe...

when you reading my blog, i ask you a question...am i perasan people??? you tell me la...hehe..tell me straight away after you read my blog ah..k?

20 sep 2011

Is me again, 2 week no update my blog, now is the time to update my blog again....

on this 2 week quiet busy for me, allot thing to do, happy thing, not happy thing, want to do, do not want to do, just a lot la..dun wish to tell much on here. who know me better then will know..

2day i want ask, whether i a person that easy get 动摇 by other people?? 

dun ask me why i ask like that? every1 have alot question, that why i ask you, izzit?? do i easy get influence by other people? ha-ha... dunno le.

i hear that she say (SELFISH）on that day,do you know what the meaning of this?? Is mean 只为自己打算,只图个人的利益,  understand??? know you will not understand it d la...i tell you...you always say that you are selfish, can i tell you that i also dunno le, but sometime you will think of other people feeling without care about your own self feeling, this not call selfish. OK? this call 为他人着想，not selfish kayyy... 

do i 中坏 you? erm...a bit gua..every1 will do like that d, not ma???

just wish to happy, sure dun unhappy thing happen d lo...for me if i treat you bad, how??? you dun like d ma. for me aso dun like d...same...

1st time see she drunk, just half cup then she started to pening already, but at last she drink 1 cup and half of it, what happen? she blur blur lo, reli blur, the detail i know it then ok...other nonid to know it..hehe

i have alot thing to write,  but duno how to write it...nvm la...write next time, or tell her oli..hehe...but you all cannot know what i tell her..blek...

6 Sep 2011

Quiet sometime i no update my blog....dun ask me why, maybe forget about it already...

but today sudenlly remember it back, so i write it back..

2day i have a feeling, duno what feeling is that..just feel that something is not right..

but i could not tell it out...just the feel thinking that something is not right...

i think is not a good sign..

but i just cant remember what is the problem...but she today feel like not like her, maybe because too tired of the thing lately..yesterday we chat alot at nite until so late dun feel wan to sleep.

just now saw her post, what she write, i think i can know it who's about...he kacau her again, can say like end 1 thing another raise up...not he but is another he..she have tell me that he looking for her back. trying to make her world from happy to not happy.

plus this semester not easy for her, quiet a lot homework to do, exam, assigment and many many more....how can i help her?? some1 tell me??? i know she will settle it, but alone and i will worry about it.

not just for me worry, if for other people also will do the same thing as me...maybe i should trying to pray for it, let see how god will do it or give some tips for me to have solution for it...let her relax, feel comfortable...not stressing...

life is not easy...is true...not easy...have high and down..but not always high and also not always down...wei...tell you...i also have down time be4, and you have seen it, now is going up now..cont rising...you also can have same with me, cont rising..Every1 have the emotion...if dun have emotion how to we have feeling.. if dun have feeling how come you or me or he or she or every1. like that every1 will be like robot without feeling or emotion.

you dun wish to be like that rite?? if  you wish i will hit ur butt..feeling and emotion is important for a person, it can be happy, smile, laugh, maybe sometime angry,sad, down..is reli different to have that compare with a robot.

dun how to write anymore...BYE



17 aug 2011

A day a girl say to a guy...

Girl say: Do you forgive me?
Guy say: har??
Girl say: Do you forgive me?(repeat)
Guy say: why!! what happen?
Girl say: nothing, just asking if i did wrong something,do you forgive me?
Girl say: if the thing is serious, will you forgive me?
Guy say: what the thing you do?
Girl say: just say if?
Guy say: OK!! (without thinking) i will forgive what you did, whatever you did wrong.
Guy say: BUT.... i will angry to you, really i will angry to you...angry what you did. why you did that without telling me at the 1st place.

above is a example:

the truth is why a guy will forgive what the girl did? maybe the girl kill people or did something wrong?

For me: i will forgive what the girl did because i still love her...the love i told is hard to explain to everyone, maybe someone have same feeling, for me i will forgive her, is i love you...this love is different from parent love, your god love, this is for you special one.

Every people have he/her special one in he/her heart, just duno how to express it.(LOVE) is unconditionally, it is based on your feeling.

for me how i know is love?? maybe just because i never so care about a girl, worry about a girl, never ever a people treat me so well because of my history.

i not a heathly guy, and i been in and out from hospital from half of my life(from kids until now), before that i never get this kind of care before, except from my parent, my parent is my closesse 1 to me, not even my good friend.

but her is different from my parent, different from my friend...i'm not leng zai also..and i'm not heathly also..and i have some skin proplem, my face always got pimples or scar..

but her do not complain anything, from the day i get my high pressure thing, she is taking care me in other way, she know i got a lot thing cant eat, she purposely go from 1 organic shop to another organic shop just because to find a sauce that i can use it. who willing to do that just because to buy a sauce? who!!! (except my parent and my church member) she is the 1 that wil do that,no 1 else..

i duno how to repay her back...i duno how...maybe by what i promise her...i will do it...do not judge her based on her age...because you duno her more than me, she have a mature thinking, but she still is a teenagers just like other, just she never will think so basic.

sometimes people will ask me, how old your GF is, then i say 19!! then they will say WA..so young oh...why i will choose her? what i will say...i will smile to them because the reason is i know you better than others...nonid to explain so much to other, just i know why then will enough already.

yesterday i have fun with her...long time no watch movie 2gether already...reli long time..hehe...

enjoy it when be with her, i can be back what am i ...be a kids also can...haha.

next time continuos...

7 Aug 2011

yesterday i have a conversation with her(heart to heart talk)...

actually every couple will have this kind of talk, so that it will make the relationship last longer( mine thinking)

if a couple no heart to heart talk, v never know how your GF or BF thinking..rite??

maybe will have 吵架, both of us have 吵架 be4...who never have??

if a couple no 吵架 be4, they must be have something...reli have something...not say 吵架 is a good thing, but it will make both of you realise both of you needed!!! more appreaciate both of you...吵架 is a communication between 2 person, is just from heart to heart talk 2nd edition(my opinion). heart to heart talk is calm and relax, but when 吵架 that time is not calm and relax...is nervous and angry...dun say a stupid thing while you in 吵架 situation...reli dun...when you say stupid thing while you 吵架, you will regret after 吵架, when you think back, why you will say that..you know it was wrong if you say that..

so next time you all 吵架, remember a thing, try to cool down yourself...dun let the anger influence your mind...that a way to pratice your EQ.

YUP!! it is a way to practice your EQ , why i say that??

duno le...people with high EQ is people that have good emotion...they wont feel angry all the time,because when they angry also, they will act like nothing...that high EQ. suitable time do suitable thing..so next time if you all 吵架, try not to say stupid and will regret after that word...it not worth it..try cool down your mind, think what happen, what cause it 1st...

many opinion say on 吵架, but this for mine opinion, mine thinking...no offence...

WE have 吵架 be4?? YUP

both of us have 吵架 be4 d..but everytime after 吵架, it will appreciated both of us...sometime i will think back why we will 吵架,(haha) stupid rite??? but everytime we 吵架, after 吵架 it, it feel like making our relationship more and more closer. not say couple is close edi..but the feel(you know what i mean).

just i duno how to express the feeling...i know the feeling...everytime i can feel your feeling, just duno how to express it..duno how to say it...can know it..hope you will forgive me duno how to express it...

30 july 2011

i have a secret...duno this call big or small secret....just i the only person hu know its...when??? hehe....long time ago...is about lie....why lie???cos i hate people lie to me...want to know why??

because everytime a people lie to us, people will know the truth at last...at last he know the truth, but on the 1st time you telling he lie...what the point???

i aso duno...let people finally found out the lie after you hide the truth....

why i hate people lie to me??

cos long time ago, i have 1 frd...close to me...almost everything will tell...first time it lie to me is??? fgt edi about what d...i know the truth, but he still tell lie infront me...tat time i just fgt it, cos just the 1st time...but after that, not 1st time, have second time, 3rd time and so on...

that time i realise that we cant be a frd anymore...just lie have within us...so i started to have gap between us...seldom talk, seldom play...at school still cant avoid, but after graduation at primary(fgt to tell is primary school)..i try to have no contact  with he...good frd at begining, last no more frd...

maybe is because me?? i cant accept lie?? i guess not gua...cos i can be patient for 1st, 2nd, 3rd...maybe 4th...but a person have the limit...dun tell lie and pretent like nothing happen...i hate it so much...so so much...

this time thing happen make me remember back this secret, after long long time...now i have no contact with he, no meet he be4, duno where is he now...like a MIS to me...

if can i wish to meet he back...duno....just wish too...fgt he name...fgt he face...hard...haiz...

good frd become like no people....

good nite... 2moro good luck to me, pray for me...everything will be alright...

and sumor...you guy not the first 1 to know...you all the second 1...i have already told some1 already...heheh

27 july 2011

yesteday nite we have go pasar malam 2gether...buy few thing...1 is she needed, 1 is i needed...long time no go pasar malam...but whenever i wan go pasar malam, that mean i need buy somthing go home(dun let hand kosong). she long time no go pasar malam, since last time is few month before..

yesterday we have heart to heart talk...no say heart to heart...just i wan she express her feeling out...she been suffer for the proplem for long time... long long time...plus this month many thing have happen!! (Many thing)

one proplem not yet settle, another have rising...reli 一波没停一波有来...for me and for her also...dun wish to tell what the proplem is...we know then alright already. but all the proplem have the solution, just need some time to do it...for us...

what i and her wish to do is....put down all the proplem, shut off the phone, drive car, get out of puchong, selangor, KL...go a place that out of puchong, selangor, KL....have fun ourself..enjoy the moment that no 烦恼 at our mind..if can stay for 1 nite...let us cool down ourself...but we know the proplem not yet settle..maybe when we have relax ourself, clear our mind..then will have the solution to settle the proplem...face the proplem face to face...settle it!!!

i know you all will say us childish....or unmature...and stupid... but the truth is do you know the truth?? you all duno....just both of us know what happen, what the feeling, what the pain, what the sad, no mood that time feeling...just both of us know it...

Both of us have been go through alot during this 1 year time....people say 1 year is short time...but whos know 1 year got 365days...during this 365day, what happen?? hu know?? but we know...during this 365days...from 0 to 100....we have been alot thing together, some say still got alot to go, to handle...YUP!! i know still got alot...but what we face it now, we more appreaciate each other...

her mum say i too stick to her already...haha...mayb lo...when talking i like to whisper at her ear...sorry oh...try change next time... cos i will like that, is when i go a new place, the place got a lot people i duno...i will try not talking loud...so that why i talk slowly...sorry...

write alot...cont lata la....bye 

25 july 2011

yesterday is a unique day for me...she bring me to a place, i no go for long long time...i know she is trying to help me...i reli appreaciated to her..tq very much to her...what she do...tq very much...

she is the 1 that have care for me....even my mum have ask the question that why your girlfriend treat you so well...what i answer?? haha...i just smile.. cos i know how to answer it...but i know then ok le...

she is the 1 that care for me, dun compare with my mum...she the 1st girl that care on me...duno how to say.. she treat me very well,very very well...i never had this kind of care be4...never...but she have given me that care i wish too..

except tq what can i do??? treat her more better...or ***** her?? both aso do it..

treat her more better i can do it everyday...anytime...no matter when...

i care on her...even when she sad...i still will be beside her...hug her.. even when she angry to me...i still will beside her...she wan bite me, hit me,chase me aways, i dun care..i still will care about her...she dun1 me beside her, i will go away watch her from far...she wherether she ok or nt..stand by if she had anything.. 

even i angry, erm...i could't angry..cos when i saw her, my angry have gone down...duno why...she just like the ice for me to cool down..

even when i sad, she will beside me..say postive thing...making me nt tat sad..she know me well....she can look through me...even i try to hide something to her..she know it aso...geng..

both of us had some connection...what connection??? i duno how to say it...just is some special connection between us...let us read both of our mind...

this few day i have emo day...for me..i maybe think too much of negatif thing...for my health thing...i should think positive thing...positive thing...dun think negative thing...dun dun dun....i also make her emo with me too...wei..looi zheng jie...dun be like that..dun make 2 people emo 2gether...need cheer up please....chua wan lin you cheer up too...

yesterday is duno how to say...luckily she beside me...i not that nervous...after she work she look unhappy..i know what cause it...it will over d..but at night her parent argue on something...making her scare...and i'm not beside her that time..sorry...i know you will scare...dun worry...i'm here...will settle it d...will over d...i give my brave to you..

sorry i'm not be at you side everytime you need me..but i will do my best for you...for our future...yes!!!

22 july 2011

2day i go get my result...for real i'm reli scare what the report will come out...she been with me, making me not so scare, nervous...reli wan to thank her...thanks her so much..

but what i scare is gone, but forever i need taking care my body reli well...what doc have say reli make me more scare...if the thing starting reduce, what will happen?

got 2 posibilities....

first...next 1 month i check again, if it still remain the same that mean mine is born like this...just like this...just have that much to make it running...compare with normal i'm the lesser...i'm will accept what have given to me...cannot compare with other people...my body is my body...other people is other people...mine is like that...i will accept it...just have too more taking good care myself...

but....if second posibilities come out...next 1 month i check again...if is reduce...i have to take another check to make sure the thing is have how long time to live..until 30 years old?? 40 years old?? duno... whos know...if can i dun1 second 1...dun wish to have second 1...

2day report is can say good and bad too...good?? mine is good condition...nothing damage...bad??? duno...

dun wish to say it...

this few days...not because of her...i'm cant have so much brave to face it...duno how to face it...act strong....can act infront other people...but infront her!!! can...just few moment only...i'm reli cant act strong infront of her...duno why...just cannot...i just cant...she like everything to me...but i dun wish let her see my down face, my sad face...but everytime also let her see it...i wan to hide it...hide it from her..i want to let her see my happy face...dun wish to let her see my sad face...

tq for this few days..tq..tq..tq...what can i say except tq..

21 july 2011

long time no say it liao....it been 2 year since the last time i go hospital see doc...

i tot is over already, but not yet..another have started....making me got a bit worry, scare....depression...why this thing happen to me again...why??

i wish to know...reli wish to know it...after that day see the report, hear what doc say, i know i have to make the worst decision, if the proplem come out...

i dun wish i have to proplem...it will make a lot of people worry, especially some1 that close to me.. sorry everything....sorry by not taking good care of my body....i'm sorry...

although it not serious, but the main point i dun wish it happen too...want to be normal...just normal as usual...normal like everyday..now it will make a lot people suffer because of me....because of me them suffer again...

it been 2year, those thing leave me....is a good thing those thing leave me...but now new thing come ups...i never tot it will be like tat...what to do???

do my best to not let them worry..do let them suffer...be positive as always... be happy as always...all this thing have to do it myself..no 1 can help you...LOOI ZHENG JIE, you must remember you have to do it yourself...be strong to your self...

from kids until now still need people to worry....how can dun let people worry...TELL ME>...please tell me..

2moro is a important thing for me...reli important thing for me..hope that everything go welll...NO....it must be go well...dun1 let people disapointed on me...

i'm the oldest at house...i must be strong....will be strong...wont cry...wont lose...wont give up...many people count on me...i will be superman as promise...

i will fullfill what i have promise...i will make it done...make it realise...what imposible make it to posible...

18 july 2011

2day is a duno how to say nite....i just now go check doc again....because of the HP thing...doc ask me go hospital check for whole body..

2moro i wil go hospital check my body, long time no check my body edi...reli a long time, i think few year no check my body edi...

just now i check with doc...i was worry too...i was nervous too...but she look more worry and nervous than me...what should i do??

i just need do is dun look nervous and worry infront of her...i dun1 both aso look nervous and worry...i know she is worry me just now, until almost can cry out... i saw it..she just hold it..i can feel that too...i need to be strong infront her, dun let her see my weak side...cos i dun wish to let her see my weak side..reli dun1...

but everytime also let her saw it...i worry about my body too...i scare i cant take care of her...need her to take care me back...i dun1 i dun1 be like tat...i want take care you...my duty to take care good of you...i dun1 too be weak infront of you...i want you saw my strong...my power...

just my body....why?? why??? why my body will so weak...from kids until now also like that...i tot it will be stronger when i grow up...but............dun wish to tell..

now i worry about her too...i will be strong back...strong like superman...my promise....become superman.....superman...

dun worry...my body i will fight it....prove to you...i will be strong...because you i will not look weak...i'm strong....

lastly!!! i wish to say...i'm looi zheng jie....I **** you

16 july 2011

2day is a normal day, normal satudays for me...

stay at house, online...

yesterday quiet fun....Y?

cos i go excercise lo...go play badminton...long time no play le lo...

some1 is complain that i no booking court for her to play...

lastly i finally get the court for her...hehe...(geng le)

yesterday first time play, long time no play for few month....tired...muscle pain...haiz...

last few day happen alot of thing...dun1 tell you all what happen....i know then ok le...pass liao lo...forget it....throw it aways.... throw it far far aways....

few day be4, i go see doc...doc say i get high presure...WAO>>>> high presure??? me?? imposible... but the truth is i get high presure...serious?? no la...duno how to say...180/120...it this serious???

i aso duno le...now just eat the medic provide by the doc lo...see how 1st...try control lo...i dun1 so young get high pressure le....charm...haiz...

now need control my eating, my emotion, everything la...

relax all the time...hehe....dun think many thing...dun eat not heatly food....and etc.

wei....looi zheng jie....stay heatly please....you still alot road to walk le...dun die here....you still got people to take care le...dun die 1st...come on......be strong...high presure oli...settle d..ahah///...

done for tonight ;o... 2moro write sumor lo..hhee 

7/7/2011

today feeling????

duno how to say....just a word can describe...Worry....

what i worrying??

1 thing...

what the thing???

my only consious people....

whos izzit???

who know she that i'm talking about ..

whos is she??

is pearl chua wan lin...

why i worry about her?

2day she go out settle something..

settle what??

settle what not important...the important is she ok then ok le...

where she go?

she go police station, then go my mum place, then i duno...

why go police station?

this does matter...

where she now?

duno...that why i worrying about her...

what time she go out?

whole day she go out...

she got ask you dun worry?

yes...she got say it...

then you should dun worry about it!!!

cannot...she my important thing...part of mine...how cant dun worry about her..

she so big already know how to take care her self!!

i know...but still will worry...wont you??

okok!!!just msg her only or call her..

i wish too, but she seem busy...

i tell you something...

what???

today i get a msg at my FB..

what msg???

it send by some1....

whos some1??

this i dun wish to tell....but this i duno wish to tell her ornt...

about what until dun wish to tell her???

about our secret..

what secret??

secret is secret, cant tell any1, just me and her know only...

whos write???

she know the person..

what he/her write???

about relationship thing...making me more worry about her today...duno where her now?

GTG!!! go out do something...dun have a lot mood...a day

05/07/2011 part3

just now fetch you back home...saw you not happy...based on your look i can saw it...hapy or not hapy..

just now you talk alot about work thing...hapy thing...got angry thing, and not hapy thing....your expresion i can saw through it...you try to hide from it...

i saw it too...cos you too quiet at car, not like normal pearl tat i know...like too talk and kacau me...i like the old ah pearl....like too kacau and talk d pearl..this few day i saw you got a bit quiet compare other.

i forgive you, my family forgive you...no people have guai you oh...muz remember it..k?

 must happy oh...k?

SORRY....for just now...SORRY....

you know what i'm sorry for...SORRY

05/07/2011 part 2

SECOND:

that day at car what i say to you, sorry.... make you feel sad again...i does't mean it...what i promise i will do it...promise is a big big thing...dun promise if i cant make it...but what i promise i will do it..and i mean it...i will 实现 let you see it..

I WILL DO MY BEST OF THE BEST....I'M NOT JUST SAY SAY... just sometime mayb you will see me like lai lai han...like does nt mean to do it...sorry...i reli reli hardworking to do it...make the dream come true...

sometime i blur blur when you tell me something...and i know you angry my behaviour not taking seriously..sorry oh...i'm not nt listen to what you say, just i duno how to say...HEHE....cheer up...i know i still have that 小孩子心态...paiseh oh...

you never see me serious be4??? i think you dun have see me serious be4 le...haha...when i will serious?? ERM.....let me think...i also duno... Cheers up oh... dun sad..i know you being thinking alot thing this few days....dun sad...k? cheers up...i'm ok oh.... my family you seen...they nothing rite??? hehe....as long as you alright...then ok le oh...k???

CAr not so important, most important is you...you alright then ok le oh....hehe...

after you see this post you dun cry...not nice d oh if you cry ...all you makeup will drop off d oh....not petty d..hehe...lata become 哭包妹...haha...

05/07/2011

few days no update my blog again...starting getting lazy...haha

but i wont forget it..dun worry about that.

this few day happen many many incident...such as!!!!

tell you 1 by 1...

first: she get sick, fever, ulser,sore throat,headeache....when she get sick i much more worry about her.. now she no fever already, just the ulser and the teeth pain making she SAN FU...i know how san fu is that..sorry i cant help as much as i can...to reduce your pain.. when in jogoya, i know you wish to eat many many food at there, but i know you control dun eat so much, that time i reli reli wan hug hug you so much...see you sick but still will go cerebrate ah jie brithdays...

DUN worry... it will get better soon, now just have to drink alot alot water..although water not that nice, but have to drink it..it will make your mouth pain..dun worry, ME here...

sometime i say i'm the doc..but this time i cant heal you recover, i will try my best to heal you, be your personal doc.

YOU CAN DO IT...YOU WILL RECOVER  ^^

I SUPPORT YOU>>>

the end....

next post lo...

29 june

今天我突然想写华语的部落格。。不知道为什么！！！

刚才在车上我跟她谈了心事，讲了不会算很多东西，就可以让大家明白的东西。。

我知道，我明白，你怕对大家都不公平，不想对我不公平，

不要担心，

我知道你会想很多有的没的，因为我太了解你这个人。。不要乱乱想，好吗？

然后你不知道要跟谁聊，就自己一个人承担。不好咯！！真的不好。。

你生病了。。我还是那样担心你，你会叫我不要担心，你没事。。但我知道你是不舒服的，是不想让我太担心你，影响我的工作。但是我跟你讲，没关系，我不会让这些事影响我做工的心情。因为公事分明。不參在一起的。

要好好照顾你自己，知道吗？？

你想吃好料？ 就是你好了我就带你吃好料。 你健康就是很大的幸福。。

我答应过我自己的，我不会生病，不会让我自己生病，因为我要照顾你。。如过你生病我生病，谁来照顾？

所以我就不要生病，不会生病，来照顾你。这个是我的保证！！！

我们在一起有一年半个月。。什么大事小事都有经历过， 我没做过的都做了，不敢做的都做了。但是还有很多等着我们。。。我们来一关一关的过。。过完了就是game over 了， 打胜了。。那我们就加油吧！！！加油加油。。。

很奇怪勒！！我写华语，我也是酱觉得。。哈哈

华语还有点难写的。。英文容易多了。。

现在不知道要写什么了。。hehe

不写了。。拜拜

25 june

i know i thin...i wan get fatter(but not FAt guy tat fat la...) just fatter then i now..how to help me getting fatter???

i eat a lot...but just duno why just cant fat le...where the fat go?? i aso duno...

tat day she teman her mum go hospital...i switch car with her mum...cos her mum do operation...then she fetch her mum go home...at night she call me, she tell me that her mum ask me together eat dinner..at the moment i stun..am i hear wrongly..am i??

i ask her second time...izzit eatting dinner wit your mum..then she say YES!!!

wao...why her mum ask me eat dinner...i duno...then i go to the place where thy will eat dinner there..

i feel nervous when meet her mum...duno why...reli nervous le...but after talking to her mum...not so bad...still ok...

i know her mum trying to gv me some sign...i know...i will work for it...to you..

 i will getting fatter...i will...just nid time ...hehe...

okok byte...blog next time..

25 June

few day no update my blog edi...2day sudenly wan update my blog, now is my 习惯to update my blog,i write wat i wan on this blog, people see people feel,i write i feel...hehe(duno what i talking about)

this few day got something happen...2day she working at giant, as a promoter, quiet fun the job, not like normal promoter, nid promote your product, but she not, she just nid entertainment to the kids,(KIDS) yup, kids...cause she be promoter to a kids product....

she look happy while can meet the kids...i also like kids so much cos kids reli reli cute..(duno how to say it out, just so cute)...

yesterday something happen, and i know it too....but i cant help much also...duno how to help...feel like no helping aso...yesterday she mood not so good, after what her mum say...i try to make her happy...

dun worry, i know you will handle it d...i also will help as much as posible...

how to help also can..

u asking me 1 question...u know what is it???

u say i the best guy...reli??/

but i dun think so...Y??? duno...just feel that not yet gv my best to you yet...hehe..now working on it...need some time..time will prove it to you, that my secret..wont so long, the deadline will be what we promise be4..that the truth...

this feel day you not going to work..i know, you tell me...people do black face to you, let you see the bad behaviour...reli no good...i know i cant reli put my into it the problem..what can i do, just care about you..tat wat can i do, you have tell me everything...you angry is rite。。。who are he? in what way he disturb our life..especially your life..reli unmature guy, working time and personal time also duno how to 分..reli cant working with this kind of guy..make your life S***....(no bad word at my blog)

Many many thing i wan to tell...cont next time ba...bye

19 June

yesterday v go melaka for 1 day trip, but eventually just half day trip(haha)... want to know why??we got 4 people go,that is pearl(my gf),benjamin,ray and me...

cos we go there too early, we go from puchong at 6.45am, reach there 8am...then start walking around the town, take photo, eating, seeing, and playing.

we do all that until 1sth...then v discuss want to go next!! but last no go anywhere, go bek kl...y? duno want go where lo..want go pasar malam jonker street d, but still got few more hour to pass, that few hour do what?? duno...then we say go back subang cook at ray house,haha, is ray cook, not us cook, ray cooking spagetti...geng le...haha

but reli tired cos last nite just slp few hour oli, cos go a dance competition event at inti college, go support my gf d..hehe...nice...the event...good...

done with the fun thing...hehe...

next part!!!

going where le??? go sepang gold coast la...hah..next trip....coming soon...got a long plan that is go redang next year, for sure, now just find people to join go there.^^ if no people go then just 2 people go oli lo....honeymoon

SO po...tell you somtthing....that is ....i tell you in the message 2day lo....u know what i saying d...hehe...4ever....

tell you another...dun get emo lo...dun get influence by the message send by he..dun care what he say...i know sometime still will care what he care, dun worry i'm here...always here, dun say sorry to me.u no wrong, i'm no wrong, both of us also no wrong..k???

not u proplem, not mine proplem, just people jealous of us oli...dun care what people say, just be back ourself.. be back ourself...you have your right...

know you this few week no so good mood...dun worry, i'm here, you can angry to me, scold me, i'm noe u will feel better after release your bad mood...then i will hug you....nothing much i can help you, just hug you, try my best to make you laugh...hehe

okok...the end of today...wait next outing...next my oldman speech...haha

nite nite

17 june

long time i didn't update  my blog, due to i busy with my work thing, this week just finish my working thing..thank god..

finally can have time to update my blog for so long.

long time no see her cry be4 until now...reli worry about her, i know she the type that not easy tell out what her feeling, what her thinking..she is the type that dun1 let other people worry about her...i know all that too...she cry because stress of exam, after that she cry because of something, she have something on her mind, just duno how to tell me, scare me what i will react.

if you saw this, i tell you something, dun worry...i always will say that, but really dun worry, i dun1 you suffer alone,  is no good suffer alone, pain alone, not happy alone, lonely by yourself, lock yourself up, keep all sad thing in you, DUN...nonid do that..now you have 1 more people to share your pain, lonely,suffer,unhappy.that ME...

i'm here, always here, i know you this few week you dun have a good mood, duno why, maybe you got something bother you???

sometime i also will make you angry, sorry...i not mean too...this few week i got more abit worry about you, cause you easy get angry, you never like that be4,never...last time, you will not like that easy get angry..

bii...tell you something...when you angry that time, you can shout loud loud, it will let you feel good...but dun....dun...dun do anything that will let you regret later, really, dun do anything that will regret after you doin it..not worth it...不要因为一时的冲动让你自己做了过后会后悔的事情，不值得。。真的事不值得。。

sometime i really will ngam ngam cham cham like a old uncle, but it really have it own good...sometime i duno how to speak out myself...present myself.

today you have a big event to do...you finally make it, it have pass, althought got some proplem occur, but it doesn't make you down d momentum...you all do a best job, especially you...well done...good job..sure reli tired, i saw your leg on pain, when you walk that time also like....always ask me take care, you should take care urself, or i take care you...i vry long time never been sick be4, because i wont get sick, got you taking care of me...TQ TQ

you sure will angry when you saw this post...Y??? so late dun1 slp...wan kena ah....haha

no dun1 slp, just i want write it down be4 i go slp, few more hour we go melaka have a 1 day trip...enjoy it oh....

just now when chen chao and his friend sing never change my love on you, make me think a lot of our thing, then he sing the yoga song, make me got a bit touching...duno...just my feeling on that time...duno how to express myself. stupid am i???(i know)

okok...take a short nap then go melaka, lata i will be the driver...haha...dun worry i wont have anything happen, cause i still will update my blog next time...i be sure for it..

i remeber all the thing you have say...ALL in my memory....ALWAYS

good nite/ good morning

8 JUne

she working hard for her study, i also will work hard for my work...how hard or how compicated work i also will go through it, CAuse nothing is imposible, just depend on yourself want to face it or not.

NO proplem cannot be solve, No proplem cannot be go through it..what i learn is nothing is imposible,everything proplem have the solution on it, just we need to find the solution to solve it...CORRECT???

no stress oh...abit stress will have d..but dun too much, cause not heathly d..too stress will make you nt mood doin anything, make u no mood to eat, make you feel down all the time, you can tell me, i'm always here, wont run away d..

you will think will mafan me, dun think that...k?

not mafan at all, if you not happy, too stress...you can find me, i'm always be your listener, just say it out then you will feel better lo, like that day after the 1st Exam..remember it??

after say it out, then you will feel better, althought i cannot give many opinion that i can give you, but i try my best share my experience to you, what i having before..how do i handle it....not helping so much but at least can let you release some stress.

Stress is good thing, it will give you some 冲进 to work it...

haha...2day write until here la...the end...cont next time la... ^^

but...i'm a listener...not a good 1 but atleast can be a listener...



6 June

2day i wake up at 4am...

Y???

cause some1 wan study at midnight, wan slp for few hour then wake up study, bt at last cant slp at all.

i never see her be4 stress like that, Never...no sleep at all because of 1 subject, hope that she wont do that again for other subject lo, no good,reli no good for your health. your body start have proplem, especially stomach, now u start pain more frequently, worry about you..Take care your body oh..k???

Must take care your body, you want go play? Eat? see? have fun, then must take care your body..i no get sick for long time, duno why.. too heathly?? or wait time only? then sick for GAO GAO..i dun1 lo...

1st time so early go mcd eat breakfast...cold.....nice...so good...never do that be4..

another topic,

旁观者清？？？ what it mean??

it mean people beside know the situation better than you..Y?

why say like that?

Duno...oldman like to say, 旁观者清..你还不懂事！我做旁人都知道发生什么事。。你却不知道，还蒙蒙差差（read in cantones)去。。明知是会撞墙，却还要去撞，痛了就知道什么叫痛。小的可能是擦伤，大的就不好咯，要怎样解缺？还是不了了之？？ Y oldman like to say that?? i also duno why....old people eat rice more than us, sometimes we will think that why they ngam ngam cham cham there..not 烦 oh...for our young people always will say like that to old people, say i know la, dun worry. but when proplem occur, try settle himself, dun1 tell other. then proplem start getting serious until cannot solve it...how???

some people will run away from the proplem...some will go die for it, but leave the proplem to other poeple, to your 亲人(haiz...). some will just quiet, dun do anything, let the proplem become more bigger.长痛不如短痛, more easly..for those borrow money from AH LONG, PLEASE la, if can dun borrow from them la, got many way to settle it..if borrow also, 不要一拖再拖，拖下去就死的很难看咯！！

haha, sure many people ask me why i wrote this, not me got proplem, I'm OK d...i'm not borrow people money, neither my relative...just a topic wan share with you all...

无聊的人

today is good day...go outlet den cn back home lo...then study with her whole day...yesterday accidently make her angry me, causeco i kacau her, she say people come take her go, den i say go la...let he take u go lo..after that she angry lo...heheh..she tot is real,(so po la) of course nt real d la...i wont give people take you away..

at evening that time, a 无聊人 disturb us through inbox, he just so wu liao...until want stalke people doin what also...i can think who is that already..cause i already suspect that person for so long ago. so turtle, not dare face to face speak to me, just know go FB msg people through inbox, no cure, no brain for that kind of poeple..

because she i dun1 put your face down, no need me settle it, if i come you will die gao gao d...dun make me come to you.

dare to disturb people life, reli no brain...(i not say say oli..) i have my limit also...dun make me reach my limit)...偷偷摸摸啦！！！no result will come out d...saw you few time like that...i just hold on oli...

dun care what people say, just do back your own thing, must 对的起自己良心...then you will be ok...dun do wrong thing...then you will regret...

31 May

2day is happy day d...but just now make me feel got a bit angry...cos something happen..

you should wish to know what happen rite???

i will tell you d..

2day happy because salary come out lo...yeahhhh!!!

can buy thing lo..hehe..2day quiet a busy day also..hehe...a bit tired, but nevermind,i enjoy it...

2moro need go the mines working again...sure will be a boring day again, no people at the fair during weekdays..haiz...sumor need stay from morning until nite...long long hour oh!!!

bring some paper work go home and do it...hehe...

天真是还没有变成熟的初期。。。天真无邪是要经过重重难关才可以 

达到成熟的地带。。每个人都有天真的一面，只是很少表现出来，不

代表没有。。不要以为自己是成熟了，只是你不知道你还是天真的一

个。。。

know what it mean???haha

this 1 i write it 2day...cause sudenlly think it...

i translate it..

The day is early yet become mature. . . Innocence is to go through numerous difficulties before they can reach a mature area. . Everyone has a naive side, but rarely shown, does not mean no. . Do not think he is mature, but you do not know you're still innocent one. . .

understand???

everyone is naive, no 1 is mature...but after you go through a proplem then you solve it, for that proplem you will be mature cause you know how to handle it when the proplem come 2nd time..(hehe)...need to slove it dun ever run from the proplem...this is nt a people should do it...should face on face do it...

okok...

now what i angry??? actually not angry la, just dun like some people no use brain, go disturb other people, dun dare to face me, always just know send message to other people, tell nonsense...reli no brain people..no dare come out,always play hide and seek...look down this kind of people....

because this thing always make she will not happy, no mood doin her stuff...this kind of people dun ever study be4...low moral...no care about other people feeling...just like to disturb people life...tot will happy doin that...NONO...it cant affect out life...it wont...

let you see how happy our life...noob people..

haha...2moro working lo...cont 2moro lo...hehe....BYE