2day i go get my result...for real i'm reli scare what the report will come out...she been with me, making me not so scare, nervous...reli wan to thank her...thanks her so much..
but what i scare is gone, but forever i need taking care my body reli well...what doc have say reli make me more scare...if the thing starting reduce, what will happen?
got 2 posibilities....
first...next 1 month i check again, if it still remain the same that mean mine is born like this...just like this...just have that much to make it running...compare with normal i'm the lesser...i'm will accept what have given to me...cannot compare with other people...my body is my body...other people is other people...mine is like that...i will accept it...just have too more taking good care myself...
but....if second posibilities come out...next 1 month i check again...if is reduce...i have to take another check to make sure the thing is have how long time to live..until 30 years old?? 40 years old?? duno... whos know...if can i dun1 second 1...dun wish to have second 1...
2day report is can say good and bad too...good?? mine is good condition...nothing damage...bad??? duno...
dun wish to say it...
this few days...not because of her...i'm cant have so much brave to face it...duno how to face it...act strong....can act infront other people...but infront her!!! can...just few moment only...i'm reli cant act strong infront of her...duno why...just cannot...i just cant...she like everything to me...but i dun wish let her see my down face, my sad face...but everytime also let her see it...i wan to hide it...hide it from her..i want to let her see my happy face...dun wish to let her see my sad face...
tq for this few days..tq..tq..tq...what can i say except tq..
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