If you don't know me by now...

i watch this drama,drama just okok only, but i catch up with this song... feeling so good...thinking about the past we been through..

The feeling just so difference...the music is just peaceful, making me thinking about it again...all the happy, sad, angry, emo, crazy together that we have been through...

the memory just so much...甜酸苦辣 that we been through..

what we have argue about..what i have emo about...wat crazy thing we do it together, what happy thing i do with you..what sad thing that i cause you.. what thing making you emo about..

listen to the lyric:

If you don't know me by now
You'll never, never, never know me
All the things that we've been through
You should understand me
Like I understand you
Now baby I know the difference
Between right and wrong
I ain't gonna do nothin'
To bring out our happy home
Oh, don't get so excited
When I come home a little late at night
Cause we only act like children
When we argue, fuss and fight
If you don't know me by now
if you don't know me
You'll never, never, never know me
no you won't get to know me
If you don't know me by now
if you don't know me
You'll never, never, never know me oh......
We all got our own funny moods
I've got mine
Baby, you got yours too
Now just trust in me
Like I trust in you
As long as we've been together
That should be so easy to do
Just get yourself together
Or we might as well say good-bye
What good is a love affair
When we can't see eye-to-eye oh.....

it vry nice rite...haha...

remember what impression i done to you just now, until you laugh die me until like that....haha...

miss that smile alot..

making me tears drop abit..when listen to this song...


== kidding...

(D***, Y** k*** that i L*** Y** S* M*** d) Remember that if you find out what i write on there...remember it...and remember what i write on your laptop d lo...REMEMBER It...

i regret for what i have just do...

i should never say that in a first place....i was regret after what i have say... there are no turning back after what i have say..i should thinks before talk..but i did it again... sorry..i know this wont help anything...sorry isn't cure for everything...sorry cant help thing go back...sorry cant make her happy.. but i can tell you i love you...that is real..is real 101% from me..

3 Feb 2012

now is Feb lo...
The CNY feeling almost over...but this Cny does give me any special but boring...damn boring compare last year...Why...dunno..haiz...

these few day i have emo suddenly...some is due to her..i dunno what i emo-ing also..just know that my feeling not so good...saw her like that i not happy also...i could just laugh in-front her but i cant do that...i just cant hide anything from her...cannot pretend like nothing happen before...but i have to do that..cos she are more problem compare with me...

one day i go ioi, buying stationary..when i walking back to from there, i saw what i does not want to saw d thing...on that time i was wanted to go in front he and ask why you here...but i was not doing that...cause i do not want for my action then become not happy between me and you...i do not wish that..i do not want because this thing we have a argue again...i dun wish it...if can i will forget everything... pretend like i not see every situation...hold it to my heart oli...dun wan tell out, then will not have any argument between us... like that will be more better? can saw you happily..

that day v were talking heart to heart...she told me about what kent said...he say we are like beach that wont even can survive for one waves...reli?? sure no la...when she hear that, she sure will down/ stun/sad for that time, but after few day oli tell me...i know she have reason...dun wan make me down on the same time...but i not oh...cos i do not think v are so easy crush by a wave oli...

Dear i saw this on Fb on that day...dun worry...if we can do that, sure no problem d ma...rite?? dun think gt d nothing d to yourself....k? you always think that...now just saw this sentence below...i know i not fulfilled all  the condition..but i have learning d oh...
⒈信任
⒉坦誠
⒊寬容
⒋理解
⒌空間
⒍珍惜
⒎想念

i know you will see my blog once a while...but believe me, i just wanted to express myself, make me one of the release problem here...you don't put it all in your heart..k?? will get heart attack soon if like that...or 心脏衰弱 d...you know??? so please do not hide it to yourself... express out d...

today i just do a most stupid day in the world....most stupid man ever...

i show her the pic...

a man that will never do that...but i do that...why??

i dun1 hide anything from her... that the truth...i promise myself that i nt hide anything from her...

but i never know that the truth is so painful..

sorry i making you so down...

14 jan 2012

is a very long time i didn't update my blog already...

haiz...

i wish to go to the beach...that place can cool me down...seeing so huge of water without any boundaries... and i wanted to shout to it until i cant shout ...cos when i shout to the sea, it wont reply my shout...saying that i so noisy or anything, i can shout out all the thing that i dun wish to put in my head...sea...a place that full of water...

a place that have no boundaries...a place that have no limit...sometime it will angry...sometime can cold like ice...sometime so angry like tsunami...it reli scary...but when u deep inside it...you can feel anything...u will just hear....a quite sound...that you couldn't found it in any place...

so long i didnt think of wanted to go to the beach...suddenly have a thought wanna go beach... same like her, last time when she nt happy or stress, she will go to swimming...cos swimming can refresh her up...cheer her up...mayb because like this i started influence by her...but i duno how to swimming, just different place, she will go to swimming but i will stand of the beach without swimming....watching the water come and go..feel so nice for me....

this few week not my week...and her too...i can saw her...not reli have good mood...stress...worrrying....sick...and got unwanted person...disturbing

i miss last time...but i know is pass already, now is now, time wont turn back for you, or anyone...wat we face will we will need to face it infront...run away is nt a solution...just you postpone the problem, at the end this problem still will come...like snow ball, when it roll down from the cliff, starting is small but if stop it on start it wont roll bigger, but if you let it roll and roll , it will getting bigger and bigger, until you can stop by yourself..and it will go destroy everything...

i know this few day not a happy day...dun worry i will told you everything that i know...that i feel...cos you are my closes...in other word...marry to me edi...i know u was worry me...what i will think...be patient...wait until CNY pass and it will over...i know he will do many little thing, disturbing my frd...but i have no prove saying that he doin it...then i just wait and see...a man doing so little thing...in other word(小人)...grow so big already bt still...have no...B***N...

people have no ***** what should i follow he become no B**** together...stupid...

dear..i know you will see this blog, dun worry i be fine( i always say that) same to you ...you also say  like that too...but both of us know well...still will worrying each other... i told you everything that i know...i saw you this few day also not reli happy also...what i can do...take care you more..i duno how to cheers u up, but...try my best...although i do many thing wrong...i say sorry to you...sorry sorry...sometimes my word will hurt you...too straight forward..duno how to bend my word...

i will be cheers up, and you also d.. i wish to see last time d pearl...you know what i mean...last time d pearl....