30 july 2011

i have a secret...duno this call big or small secret....just i the only person hu know its...when??? hehe....long time ago...is about lie....why lie???cos i hate people lie to me...want to know why??

because everytime a people lie to us, people will know the truth at last...at last he know the truth, but on the 1st time you telling he lie...what the point???

i aso duno...let people finally found out the lie after you hide the truth....

why i hate people lie to me??

cos long time ago, i have 1 frd...close to me...almost everything will tell...first time it lie to me is??? fgt edi about what d...i know the truth, but he still tell lie infront me...tat time i just fgt it, cos just the 1st time...but after that, not 1st time, have second time, 3rd time and so on...

that time i realise that we cant be a frd anymore...just lie have within us...so i started to have gap between us...seldom talk, seldom play...at school still cant avoid, but after graduation at primary(fgt to tell is primary school)..i try to have no contact  with he...good frd at begining, last no more frd...

maybe is because me?? i cant accept lie?? i guess not gua...cos i can be patient for 1st, 2nd, 3rd...maybe 4th...but a person have the limit...dun tell lie and pretent like nothing happen...i hate it so much...so so much...

this time thing happen make me remember back this secret, after long long time...now i have no contact with he, no meet he be4, duno where is he now...like a MIS to me...

if can i wish to meet he back...duno....just wish too...fgt he name...fgt he face...hard...haiz...

good frd become like no people....

good nite... 2moro good luck to me, pray for me...everything will be alright...

and sumor...you guy not the first 1 to know...you all the second 1...i have already told some1 already...heheh

27 july 2011

yesteday nite we have go pasar malam 2gether...buy few thing...1 is she needed, 1 is i needed...long time no go pasar malam...but whenever i wan go pasar malam, that mean i need buy somthing go home(dun let hand kosong). she long time no go pasar malam, since last time is few month before..

yesterday we have heart to heart talk...no say heart to heart...just i wan she express her feeling out...she been suffer for the proplem for long time... long long time...plus this month many thing have happen!! (Many thing)

one proplem not yet settle, another have rising...reli 一波没停一波有来...for me and for her also...dun wish to tell what the proplem is...we know then alright already. but all the proplem have the solution, just need some time to do it...for us...

what i and her wish to do is....put down all the proplem, shut off the phone, drive car, get out of puchong, selangor, KL...go a place that out of puchong, selangor, KL....have fun ourself..enjoy the moment that no 烦恼 at our mind..if can stay for 1 nite...let us cool down ourself...but we know the proplem not yet settle..maybe when we have relax ourself, clear our mind..then will have the solution to settle the proplem...face the proplem face to face...settle it!!!

i know you all will say us childish....or unmature...and stupid... but the truth is do you know the truth?? you all duno....just both of us know what happen, what the feeling, what the pain, what the sad, no mood that time feeling...just both of us know it...

Both of us have been go through alot during this 1 year time....people say 1 year is short time...but whos know 1 year got 365days...during this 365day, what happen?? hu know?? but we know...during this 365days...from 0 to 100....we have been alot thing together, some say still got alot to go, to handle...YUP!! i know still got alot...but what we face it now, we more appreaciate each other...

her mum say i too stick to her already...haha...mayb lo...when talking i like to whisper at her ear...sorry oh...try change next time... cos i will like that, is when i go a new place, the place got a lot people i duno...i will try not talking loud...so that why i talk slowly...sorry...

write alot...cont lata la....bye 

25 july 2011

yesterday is a unique day for me...she bring me to a place, i no go for long long time...i know she is trying to help me...i reli appreaciated to her..tq very much to her...what she do...tq very much...

she is the 1 that have care for me....even my mum have ask the question that why your girlfriend treat you so well...what i answer?? haha...i just smile.. cos i know how to answer it...but i know then ok le...

she is the 1 that care for me, dun compare with my mum...she the 1st girl that care on me...duno how to say.. she treat me very well,very very well...i never had this kind of care be4...never...but she have given me that care i wish too..

except tq what can i do??? treat her more better...or ***** her?? both aso do it..

treat her more better i can do it everyday...anytime...no matter when...

i care on her...even when she sad...i still will be beside her...hug her.. even when she angry to me...i still will beside her...she wan bite me, hit me,chase me aways, i dun care..i still will care about her...she dun1 me beside her, i will go away watch her from far...she wherether she ok or nt..stand by if she had anything.. 

even i angry, erm...i could't angry..cos when i saw her, my angry have gone down...duno why...she just like the ice for me to cool down..

even when i sad, she will beside me..say postive thing...making me nt tat sad..she know me well....she can look through me...even i try to hide something to her..she know it aso...geng..

both of us had some connection...what connection??? i duno how to say it...just is some special connection between us...let us read both of our mind...

this few day i have emo day...for me..i maybe think too much of negatif thing...for my health thing...i should think positive thing...positive thing...dun think negative thing...dun dun dun....i also make her emo with me too...wei..looi zheng jie...dun be like that..dun make 2 people emo 2gether...need cheer up please....chua wan lin you cheer up too...

yesterday is duno how to say...luckily she beside me...i not that nervous...after she work she look unhappy..i know what cause it...it will over d..but at night her parent argue on something...making her scare...and i'm not beside her that time..sorry...i know you will scare...dun worry...i'm here...will settle it d...will over d...i give my brave to you..

sorry i'm not be at you side everytime you need me..but i will do my best for you...for our future...yes!!!

22 july 2011

2day i go get my result...for real i'm reli scare what the report will come out...she been with me, making me not so scare, nervous...reli wan to thank her...thanks her so much..

but what i scare is gone, but forever i need taking care my body reli well...what doc have say reli make me more scare...if the thing starting reduce, what will happen?

got 2 posibilities....

first...next 1 month i check again, if it still remain the same that mean mine is born like this...just like this...just have that much to make it running...compare with normal i'm the lesser...i'm will accept what have given to me...cannot compare with other people...my body is my body...other people is other people...mine is like that...i will accept it...just have too more taking good care myself...

but....if second posibilities come out...next 1 month i check again...if is reduce...i have to take another check to make sure the thing is have how long time to live..until 30 years old?? 40 years old?? duno... whos know...if can i dun1 second 1...dun wish to have second 1...

2day report is can say good and bad too...good?? mine is good condition...nothing damage...bad??? duno...

dun wish to say it...

this few days...not because of her...i'm cant have so much brave to face it...duno how to face it...act strong....can act infront other people...but infront her!!! can...just few moment only...i'm reli cant act strong infront of her...duno why...just cannot...i just cant...she like everything to me...but i dun wish let her see my down face, my sad face...but everytime also let her see it...i wan to hide it...hide it from her..i want to let her see my happy face...dun wish to let her see my sad face...

tq for this few days..tq..tq..tq...what can i say except tq..

21 july 2011

long time no say it liao....it been 2 year since the last time i go hospital see doc...

i tot is over already, but not yet..another have started....making me got a bit worry, scare....depression...why this thing happen to me again...why??

i wish to know...reli wish to know it...after that day see the report, hear what doc say, i know i have to make the worst decision, if the proplem come out...

i dun wish i have to proplem...it will make a lot of people worry, especially some1 that close to me.. sorry everything....sorry by not taking good care of my body....i'm sorry...

although it not serious, but the main point i dun wish it happen too...want to be normal...just normal as usual...normal like everyday..now it will make a lot people suffer because of me....because of me them suffer again...

it been 2year, those thing leave me....is a good thing those thing leave me...but now new thing come ups...i never tot it will be like tat...what to do???

do my best to not let them worry..do let them suffer...be positive as always... be happy as always...all this thing have to do it myself..no 1 can help you...LOOI ZHENG JIE, you must remember you have to do it yourself...be strong to your self...

from kids until now still need people to worry....how can dun let people worry...TELL ME>...please tell me..

2moro is a important thing for me...reli important thing for me..hope that everything go welll...NO....it must be go well...dun1 let people disapointed on me...

i'm the oldest at house...i must be strong....will be strong...wont cry...wont lose...wont give up...many people count on me...i will be superman as promise...

i will fullfill what i have promise...i will make it done...make it realise...what imposible make it to posible...

18 july 2011

2day is a duno how to say nite....i just now go check doc again....because of the HP thing...doc ask me go hospital check for whole body..

2moro i wil go hospital check my body, long time no check my body edi...reli a long time, i think few year no check my body edi...

just now i check with doc...i was worry too...i was nervous too...but she look more worry and nervous than me...what should i do??

i just need do is dun look nervous and worry infront of her...i dun1 both aso look nervous and worry...i know she is worry me just now, until almost can cry out... i saw it..she just hold it..i can feel that too...i need to be strong infront her, dun let her see my weak side...cos i dun wish to let her see my weak side..reli dun1...

but everytime also let her saw it...i worry about my body too...i scare i cant take care of her...need her to take care me back...i dun1 i dun1 be like tat...i want take care you...my duty to take care good of you...i dun1 too be weak infront of you...i want you saw my strong...my power...

just my body....why?? why??? why my body will so weak...from kids until now also like that...i tot it will be stronger when i grow up...but............dun wish to tell..

now i worry about her too...i will be strong back...strong like superman...my promise....become superman.....superman...

dun worry...my body i will fight it....prove to you...i will be strong...because you i will not look weak...i'm strong....

lastly!!! i wish to say...i'm looi zheng jie....I **** you

16 july 2011

2day is a normal day, normal satudays for me...

stay at house, online...

yesterday quiet fun....Y?

cos i go excercise lo...go play badminton...long time no play le lo...

some1 is complain that i no booking court for her to play...

lastly i finally get the court for her...hehe...(geng le)

yesterday first time play, long time no play for few month....tired...muscle pain...haiz...

last few day happen alot of thing...dun1 tell you all what happen....i know then ok le...pass liao lo...forget it....throw it aways.... throw it far far aways....

few day be4, i go see doc...doc say i get high presure...WAO>>>> high presure??? me?? imposible... but the truth is i get high presure...serious?? no la...duno how to say...180/120...it this serious???

i aso duno le...now just eat the medic provide by the doc lo...see how 1st...try control lo...i dun1 so young get high pressure le....charm...haiz...

now need control my eating, my emotion, everything la...

relax all the time...hehe....dun think many thing...dun eat not heatly food....and etc.

wei....looi zheng jie....stay heatly please....you still alot road to walk le...dun die here....you still got people to take care le...dun die 1st...come on......be strong...high presure oli...settle d..ahah///...

done for tonight ;o... 2moro write sumor lo..hhee 

7/7/2011

today feeling????

duno how to say....just a word can describe...Worry....

what i worrying??

1 thing...

what the thing???

my only consious people....

whos izzit???

who know she that i'm talking about ..

whos is she??

is pearl chua wan lin...

why i worry about her?

2day she go out settle something..

settle what??

settle what not important...the important is she ok then ok le...

where she go?

she go police station, then go my mum place, then i duno...

why go police station?

this does matter...

where she now?

duno...that why i worrying about her...

what time she go out?

whole day she go out...

she got ask you dun worry?

yes...she got say it...

then you should dun worry about it!!!

cannot...she my important thing...part of mine...how cant dun worry about her..

she so big already know how to take care her self!!

i know...but still will worry...wont you??

okok!!!just msg her only or call her..

i wish too, but she seem busy...

i tell you something...

what???

today i get a msg at my FB..

what msg???

it send by some1....

whos some1??

this i dun wish to tell....but this i duno wish to tell her ornt...

about what until dun wish to tell her???

about our secret..

what secret??

secret is secret, cant tell any1, just me and her know only...

whos write???

she know the person..

what he/her write???

about relationship thing...making me more worry about her today...duno where her now?

GTG!!! go out do something...dun have a lot mood...a day

05/07/2011 part3

just now fetch you back home...saw you not happy...based on your look i can saw it...hapy or not hapy..

just now you talk alot about work thing...hapy thing...got angry thing, and not hapy thing....your expresion i can saw through it...you try to hide from it...

i saw it too...cos you too quiet at car, not like normal pearl tat i know...like too talk and kacau me...i like the old ah pearl....like too kacau and talk d pearl..this few day i saw you got a bit quiet compare other.

i forgive you, my family forgive you...no people have guai you oh...muz remember it..k?

 must happy oh...k?

SORRY....for just now...SORRY....

you know what i'm sorry for...SORRY

05/07/2011 part 2

SECOND:

that day at car what i say to you, sorry.... make you feel sad again...i does't mean it...what i promise i will do it...promise is a big big thing...dun promise if i cant make it...but what i promise i will do it..and i mean it...i will 实现 let you see it..

I WILL DO MY BEST OF THE BEST....I'M NOT JUST SAY SAY... just sometime mayb you will see me like lai lai han...like does nt mean to do it...sorry...i reli reli hardworking to do it...make the dream come true...

sometime i blur blur when you tell me something...and i know you angry my behaviour not taking seriously..sorry oh...i'm not nt listen to what you say, just i duno how to say...HEHE....cheer up...i know i still have that 小孩子心态...paiseh oh...

you never see me serious be4??? i think you dun have see me serious be4 le...haha...when i will serious?? ERM.....let me think...i also duno... Cheers up oh... dun sad..i know you being thinking alot thing this few days....dun sad...k? cheers up...i'm ok oh.... my family you seen...they nothing rite??? hehe....as long as you alright...then ok le oh...k???

CAr not so important, most important is you...you alright then ok le oh....hehe...

after you see this post you dun cry...not nice d oh if you cry ...all you makeup will drop off d oh....not petty d..hehe...lata become 哭包妹...haha...

05/07/2011

few days no update my blog again...starting getting lazy...haha

but i wont forget it..dun worry about that.

this few day happen many many incident...such as!!!!

tell you 1 by 1...

first: she get sick, fever, ulser,sore throat,headeache....when she get sick i much more worry about her.. now she no fever already, just the ulser and the teeth pain making she SAN FU...i know how san fu is that..sorry i cant help as much as i can...to reduce your pain.. when in jogoya, i know you wish to eat many many food at there, but i know you control dun eat so much, that time i reli reli wan hug hug you so much...see you sick but still will go cerebrate ah jie brithdays...

DUN worry... it will get better soon, now just have to drink alot alot water..although water not that nice, but have to drink it..it will make your mouth pain..dun worry, ME here...

sometime i say i'm the doc..but this time i cant heal you recover, i will try my best to heal you, be your personal doc.

YOU CAN DO IT...YOU WILL RECOVER  ^^

I SUPPORT YOU>>>

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