17 aug 2011

A day a girl say to a guy...

Girl say: Do you forgive me?
Guy say: har??
Girl say: Do you forgive me?(repeat)
Guy say: why!! what happen?
Girl say: nothing, just asking if i did wrong something,do you forgive me?
Girl say: if the thing is serious, will you forgive me?
Guy say: what the thing you do?
Girl say: just say if?
Guy say: OK!! (without thinking) i will forgive what you did, whatever you did wrong.
Guy say: BUT.... i will angry to you, really i will angry to you...angry what you did. why you did that without telling me at the 1st place.

above is a example:

the truth is why a guy will forgive what the girl did? maybe the girl kill people or did something wrong?

For me: i will forgive what the girl did because i still love her...the love i told is hard to explain to everyone, maybe someone have same feeling, for me i will forgive her, is i love you...this love is different from parent love, your god love, this is for you special one.

Every people have he/her special one in he/her heart, just duno how to express it.(LOVE) is unconditionally, it is based on your feeling.

for me how i know is love?? maybe just because i never so care about a girl, worry about a girl, never ever a people treat me so well because of my history.

i not a heathly guy, and i been in and out from hospital from half of my life(from kids until now), before that i never get this kind of care before, except from my parent, my parent is my closesse 1 to me, not even my good friend.

but her is different from my parent, different from my friend...i'm not leng zai also..and i'm not heathly also..and i have some skin proplem, my face always got pimples or scar..

but her do not complain anything, from the day i get my high pressure thing, she is taking care me in other way, she know i got a lot thing cant eat, she purposely go from 1 organic shop to another organic shop just because to find a sauce that i can use it. who willing to do that just because to buy a sauce? who!!! (except my parent and my church member) she is the 1 that wil do that,no 1 else..

i duno how to repay her back...i duno how...maybe by what i promise her...i will do it...do not judge her based on her age...because you duno her more than me, she have a mature thinking, but she still is a teenagers just like other, just she never will think so basic.

sometimes people will ask me, how old your GF is, then i say 19!! then they will say WA..so young oh...why i will choose her? what i will say...i will smile to them because the reason is i know you better than others...nonid to explain so much to other, just i know why then will enough already.

yesterday i have fun with her...long time no watch movie 2gether already...reli long time..hehe...

enjoy it when be with her, i can be back what am i ...be a kids also can...haha.

next time continuos...

7 Aug 2011

yesterday i have a conversation with her(heart to heart talk)...

actually every couple will have this kind of talk, so that it will make the relationship last longer( mine thinking)

if a couple no heart to heart talk, v never know how your GF or BF thinking..rite??

maybe will have 吵架, both of us have 吵架 be4...who never have??

if a couple no 吵架 be4, they must be have something...reli have something...not say 吵架 is a good thing, but it will make both of you realise both of you needed!!! more appreaciate both of you...吵架 is a communication between 2 person, is just from heart to heart talk 2nd edition(my opinion). heart to heart talk is calm and relax, but when 吵架 that time is not calm and relax...is nervous and angry...dun say a stupid thing while you in 吵架 situation...reli dun...when you say stupid thing while you 吵架, you will regret after 吵架, when you think back, why you will say that..you know it was wrong if you say that..

so next time you all 吵架, remember a thing, try to cool down yourself...dun let the anger influence your mind...that a way to pratice your EQ.

YUP!! it is a way to practice your EQ , why i say that??

duno le...people with high EQ is people that have good emotion...they wont feel angry all the time,because when they angry also, they will act like nothing...that high EQ. suitable time do suitable thing..so next time if you all 吵架, try not to say stupid and will regret after that word...it not worth it..try cool down your mind, think what happen, what cause it 1st...

many opinion say on 吵架, but this for mine opinion, mine thinking...no offence...

WE have 吵架 be4?? YUP

both of us have 吵架 be4 d..but everytime after 吵架, it will appreciated both of us...sometime i will think back why we will 吵架,(haha) stupid rite??? but everytime we 吵架, after 吵架 it, it feel like making our relationship more and more closer. not say couple is close edi..but the feel(you know what i mean).

just i duno how to express the feeling...i know the feeling...everytime i can feel your feeling, just duno how to express it..duno how to say it...can know it..hope you will forgive me duno how to express it...

30 july 2011

i have a secret...duno this call big or small secret....just i the only person hu know its...when??? hehe....long time ago...is about lie....why lie???cos i hate people lie to me...want to know why??

because everytime a people lie to us, people will know the truth at last...at last he know the truth, but on the 1st time you telling he lie...what the point???

i aso duno...let people finally found out the lie after you hide the truth....

why i hate people lie to me??

cos long time ago, i have 1 frd...close to me...almost everything will tell...first time it lie to me is??? fgt edi about what d...i know the truth, but he still tell lie infront me...tat time i just fgt it, cos just the 1st time...but after that, not 1st time, have second time, 3rd time and so on...

that time i realise that we cant be a frd anymore...just lie have within us...so i started to have gap between us...seldom talk, seldom play...at school still cant avoid, but after graduation at primary(fgt to tell is primary school)..i try to have no contact  with he...good frd at begining, last no more frd...

maybe is because me?? i cant accept lie?? i guess not gua...cos i can be patient for 1st, 2nd, 3rd...maybe 4th...but a person have the limit...dun tell lie and pretent like nothing happen...i hate it so much...so so much...

this time thing happen make me remember back this secret, after long long time...now i have no contact with he, no meet he be4, duno where is he now...like a MIS to me...

if can i wish to meet he back...duno....just wish too...fgt he name...fgt he face...hard...haiz...

good frd become like no people....

good nite... 2moro good luck to me, pray for me...everything will be alright...

and sumor...you guy not the first 1 to know...you all the second 1...i have already told some1 already...heheh

27 july 2011

yesteday nite we have go pasar malam 2gether...buy few thing...1 is she needed, 1 is i needed...long time no go pasar malam...but whenever i wan go pasar malam, that mean i need buy somthing go home(dun let hand kosong). she long time no go pasar malam, since last time is few month before..

yesterday we have heart to heart talk...no say heart to heart...just i wan she express her feeling out...she been suffer for the proplem for long time... long long time...plus this month many thing have happen!! (Many thing)

one proplem not yet settle, another have rising...reli 一波没停一波有来...for me and for her also...dun wish to tell what the proplem is...we know then alright already. but all the proplem have the solution, just need some time to do it...for us...

what i and her wish to do is....put down all the proplem, shut off the phone, drive car, get out of puchong, selangor, KL...go a place that out of puchong, selangor, KL....have fun ourself..enjoy the moment that no 烦恼 at our mind..if can stay for 1 nite...let us cool down ourself...but we know the proplem not yet settle..maybe when we have relax ourself, clear our mind..then will have the solution to settle the proplem...face the proplem face to face...settle it!!!

i know you all will say us childish....or unmature...and stupid... but the truth is do you know the truth?? you all duno....just both of us know what happen, what the feeling, what the pain, what the sad, no mood that time feeling...just both of us know it...

Both of us have been go through alot during this 1 year time....people say 1 year is short time...but whos know 1 year got 365days...during this 365day, what happen?? hu know?? but we know...during this 365days...from 0 to 100....we have been alot thing together, some say still got alot to go, to handle...YUP!! i know still got alot...but what we face it now, we more appreaciate each other...

her mum say i too stick to her already...haha...mayb lo...when talking i like to whisper at her ear...sorry oh...try change next time... cos i will like that, is when i go a new place, the place got a lot people i duno...i will try not talking loud...so that why i talk slowly...sorry...

write alot...cont lata la....bye 

25 july 2011

yesterday is a unique day for me...she bring me to a place, i no go for long long time...i know she is trying to help me...i reli appreaciated to her..tq very much to her...what she do...tq very much...

she is the 1 that have care for me....even my mum have ask the question that why your girlfriend treat you so well...what i answer?? haha...i just smile.. cos i know how to answer it...but i know then ok le...

she is the 1 that care for me, dun compare with my mum...she the 1st girl that care on me...duno how to say.. she treat me very well,very very well...i never had this kind of care be4...never...but she have given me that care i wish too..

except tq what can i do??? treat her more better...or ***** her?? both aso do it..

treat her more better i can do it everyday...anytime...no matter when...

i care on her...even when she sad...i still will be beside her...hug her.. even when she angry to me...i still will beside her...she wan bite me, hit me,chase me aways, i dun care..i still will care about her...she dun1 me beside her, i will go away watch her from far...she wherether she ok or nt..stand by if she had anything.. 

even i angry, erm...i could't angry..cos when i saw her, my angry have gone down...duno why...she just like the ice for me to cool down..

even when i sad, she will beside me..say postive thing...making me nt tat sad..she know me well....she can look through me...even i try to hide something to her..she know it aso...geng..

both of us had some connection...what connection??? i duno how to say it...just is some special connection between us...let us read both of our mind...

this few day i have emo day...for me..i maybe think too much of negatif thing...for my health thing...i should think positive thing...positive thing...dun think negative thing...dun dun dun....i also make her emo with me too...wei..looi zheng jie...dun be like that..dun make 2 people emo 2gether...need cheer up please....chua wan lin you cheer up too...

yesterday is duno how to say...luckily she beside me...i not that nervous...after she work she look unhappy..i know what cause it...it will over d..but at night her parent argue on something...making her scare...and i'm not beside her that time..sorry...i know you will scare...dun worry...i'm here...will settle it d...will over d...i give my brave to you..

sorry i'm not be at you side everytime you need me..but i will do my best for you...for our future...yes!!!

22 july 2011

2day i go get my result...for real i'm reli scare what the report will come out...she been with me, making me not so scare, nervous...reli wan to thank her...thanks her so much..

but what i scare is gone, but forever i need taking care my body reli well...what doc have say reli make me more scare...if the thing starting reduce, what will happen?

got 2 posibilities....

first...next 1 month i check again, if it still remain the same that mean mine is born like this...just like this...just have that much to make it running...compare with normal i'm the lesser...i'm will accept what have given to me...cannot compare with other people...my body is my body...other people is other people...mine is like that...i will accept it...just have too more taking good care myself...

but....if second posibilities come out...next 1 month i check again...if is reduce...i have to take another check to make sure the thing is have how long time to live..until 30 years old?? 40 years old?? duno... whos know...if can i dun1 second 1...dun wish to have second 1...

2day report is can say good and bad too...good?? mine is good condition...nothing damage...bad??? duno...

dun wish to say it...

this few days...not because of her...i'm cant have so much brave to face it...duno how to face it...act strong....can act infront other people...but infront her!!! can...just few moment only...i'm reli cant act strong infront of her...duno why...just cannot...i just cant...she like everything to me...but i dun wish let her see my down face, my sad face...but everytime also let her see it...i wan to hide it...hide it from her..i want to let her see my happy face...dun wish to let her see my sad face...

tq for this few days..tq..tq..tq...what can i say except tq..

21 july 2011

long time no say it liao....it been 2 year since the last time i go hospital see doc...

i tot is over already, but not yet..another have started....making me got a bit worry, scare....depression...why this thing happen to me again...why??

i wish to know...reli wish to know it...after that day see the report, hear what doc say, i know i have to make the worst decision, if the proplem come out...

i dun wish i have to proplem...it will make a lot of people worry, especially some1 that close to me.. sorry everything....sorry by not taking good care of my body....i'm sorry...

although it not serious, but the main point i dun wish it happen too...want to be normal...just normal as usual...normal like everyday..now it will make a lot people suffer because of me....because of me them suffer again...

it been 2year, those thing leave me....is a good thing those thing leave me...but now new thing come ups...i never tot it will be like tat...what to do???

do my best to not let them worry..do let them suffer...be positive as always... be happy as always...all this thing have to do it myself..no 1 can help you...LOOI ZHENG JIE, you must remember you have to do it yourself...be strong to your self...

from kids until now still need people to worry....how can dun let people worry...TELL ME>...please tell me..

2moro is a important thing for me...reli important thing for me..hope that everything go welll...NO....it must be go well...dun1 let people disapointed on me...

i'm the oldest at house...i must be strong....will be strong...wont cry...wont lose...wont give up...many people count on me...i will be superman as promise...

i will fullfill what i have promise...i will make it done...make it realise...what imposible make it to posible...