3 Feb 2012

now is Feb lo...
The CNY feeling almost over...but this Cny does give me any special but boring...damn boring compare last year...Why...dunno..haiz...

these few day i have emo suddenly...some is due to her..i dunno what i emo-ing also..just know that my feeling not so good...saw her like that i not happy also...i could just laugh in-front her but i cant do that...i just cant hide anything from her...cannot pretend like nothing happen before...but i have to do that..cos she are more problem compare with me...

one day i go ioi, buying stationary..when i walking back to from there, i saw what i does not want to saw d thing...on that time i was wanted to go in front he and ask why you here...but i was not doing that...cause i do not want for my action then become not happy between me and you...i do not wish that..i do not want because this thing we have a argue again...i dun wish it...if can i will forget everything... pretend like i not see every situation...hold it to my heart oli...dun wan tell out, then will not have any argument between us... like that will be more better? can saw you happily..

that day v were talking heart to heart...she told me about what kent said...he say we are like beach that wont even can survive for one waves...reli?? sure no la...when she hear that, she sure will down/ stun/sad for that time, but after few day oli tell me...i know she have reason...dun wan make me down on the same time...but i not oh...cos i do not think v are so easy crush by a wave oli...

Dear i saw this on Fb on that day...dun worry...if we can do that, sure no problem d ma...rite?? dun think gt d nothing d to yourself....k? you always think that...now just saw this sentence below...i know i not fulfilled all  the condition..but i have learning d oh...
⒈信任
⒉坦誠
⒊寬容
⒋理解
⒌空間
⒍珍惜
⒎想念

i know you will see my blog once a while...but believe me, i just wanted to express myself, make me one of the release problem here...you don't put it all in your heart..k?? will get heart attack soon if like that...or 心脏衰弱 d...you know??? so please do not hide it to yourself... express out d...

today i just do a most stupid day in the world....most stupid man ever...

i show her the pic...

a man that will never do that...but i do that...why??

i dun1 hide anything from her... that the truth...i promise myself that i nt hide anything from her...

but i never know that the truth is so painful..

sorry i making you so down...

14 jan 2012

is a very long time i didn't update my blog already...

haiz...

i wish to go to the beach...that place can cool me down...seeing so huge of water without any boundaries... and i wanted to shout to it until i cant shout ...cos when i shout to the sea, it wont reply my shout...saying that i so noisy or anything, i can shout out all the thing that i dun wish to put in my head...sea...a place that full of water...

a place that have no boundaries...a place that have no limit...sometime it will angry...sometime can cold like ice...sometime so angry like tsunami...it reli scary...but when u deep inside it...you can feel anything...u will just hear....a quite sound...that you couldn't found it in any place...

so long i didnt think of wanted to go to the beach...suddenly have a thought wanna go beach... same like her, last time when she nt happy or stress, she will go to swimming...cos swimming can refresh her up...cheer her up...mayb because like this i started influence by her...but i duno how to swimming, just different place, she will go to swimming but i will stand of the beach without swimming....watching the water come and go..feel so nice for me....

this few week not my week...and her too...i can saw her...not reli have good mood...stress...worrrying....sick...and got unwanted person...disturbing

i miss last time...but i know is pass already, now is now, time wont turn back for you, or anyone...wat we face will we will need to face it infront...run away is nt a solution...just you postpone the problem, at the end this problem still will come...like snow ball, when it roll down from the cliff, starting is small but if stop it on start it wont roll bigger, but if you let it roll and roll , it will getting bigger and bigger, until you can stop by yourself..and it will go destroy everything...

i know this few day not a happy day...dun worry i will told you everything that i know...that i feel...cos you are my closes...in other word...marry to me edi...i know u was worry me...what i will think...be patient...wait until CNY pass and it will over...i know he will do many little thing, disturbing my frd...but i have no prove saying that he doin it...then i just wait and see...a man doing so little thing...in other word(小人)...grow so big already bt still...have no...B***N...

people have no ***** what should i follow he become no B**** together...stupid...

dear..i know you will see this blog, dun worry i be fine( i always say that) same to you ...you also say  like that too...but both of us know well...still will worrying each other... i told you everything that i know...i saw you this few day also not reli happy also...what i can do...take care you more..i duno how to cheers u up, but...try my best...although i do many thing wrong...i say sorry to you...sorry sorry...sometimes my word will hurt you...too straight forward..duno how to bend my word...

i will be cheers up, and you also d.. i wish to see last time d pearl...you know what i mean...last time d pearl....

16 dec 2011

just left 15 days then 2012 is coming, so fast a year have past...

during a year what you have do? what you have achieve?

what you have done?

me? haha... quiet a lot too...

many thing is happening...even now too...our relationship is getting closer and closer, although during this year alot of thing is happen..

let see after Chinese new year...what are the result..

yesterday i had a nicer dream ever...can say it until now... how to say it..but now starting getting abit blur blur...so i better write it down before reli gone..  i goes back to secondary school.. but she also at secondary school, included all my friend and her friend too... the feeling in the dream are just warm, and i feel that i can feel the feeling during that time...how to say the feeling i have...erm...reli just hard...just i duno to describe it...not happy, and for sure nt sad too...just enjoy, and i can i wish to get into the dream again...

in the dream i meet her, in secondary school... impossible rite!! cos i different school with her.. but in the dream i can see her face again...when she smile it...that moment..enjoy wot her friend...run here and there, just like a kids...what i doing in that time? haha

i just watching it...saw her when she at secondary school...erm...the rest is sudenly my alarm wakes me up...F*** the alarm...why always wake me up during the nice part...i miss the dream so much..do you know that...although my secondary school are different..but in the dream are just prefect..

TQTQ...to you...and giving me alot learning during this year...i have grow up in some part...but still have many still need improve.. MY EQ have improve or nt le???

you tell me...

lastly...i wish tell you something...

that is ...

my brithday is near, ready my present.. : p

saw the last part.... i love you....i mean it(serious face)

28 nov 2011

Yesterday i went to mid valley watch movie, long time no watch at night...really unforgettable.

yesterday i go watch this movie, i know i know, this movie is on cinema for a long time but why now only go watch it, i like it ah...BLEK....

whole movie is ok la..but few part are unforgettable, because why?

you wan to know which part?

haha...dun tell you all better...

 is on railway d, what it say make me remember it back what she say.

just saw what she write on her blog, rely rely so po lai .....

you know what i mean, i promise to you that i will follow the promise i gave it to you...wont forget it...you  also ah....dun ever forget it ah..if not.....you will know the Consequence 

haha...

you never say it on blog d but you say it too...i will say it same to you..

i love you

another trick for you, guess it

一个黑大汉，腰插两把扇， 走一步，扇几扇。(猜动物）

25 nov 2011

This 2 day i busy helping move to new house..

me move to new house??

sure no d..i dun have so much money to move to new house, during this 2 day i was helping pearl and her family move furniture to her new house, it was a lot thing to pack...need 2 day to pack all the thing to the new house.

i enjoy with the process with her, i dun mind we not going out dating or what. but i can be with her i already happy for it...the feeling is different...and i enjoy it so much.

her new house is big and nice, especially her new room..i like it...

next time my house will be like tat too, but will be more bigger..can put a lot of thing that we both like.

during this 2 day i know i have make few mistake and make her angry to me, i sorry about it....most of the mistake i shouldn't do it...but i still do it.

sorry for it...i really sorry for it.

有一隻熊走過(猜四個字成語)

8 nov 2011

today i receive a mail again...when i 1st saw it, i know(haiz) again...not sien izzit?

duno he...started i dun wish to tell her about this mail i receive, dun wish to let her know about this d. because when she know about this, it will make the day down d.. but i decided to tell her about this mail...

i know you ask me dun listen what he say or what he write, but what he write is just wish to punch him in the face. i know myself..

i should not ask you those thing because i know after i ask about it, your mood will down, although you say you ok, but i saw it and i can feel it, you are not ok with it. 

i know my month is not really how to turn right or left, just go straight to the point, hurting people straight away. without think about any consequences, each time also like that, i trying to change myself because of that, but i not lie to you also...really d..

that is truth...

i know you not so believe on me about this thing.. but what i can do is just put my faith to you, do all the action let you see it that i still have believe in you...it need time to prove that, trust is not easy to make, i know..break it is easy within few second can do it.

that why i will prove it to you let you believe that i believe on you....

dun say you break your promise, i know that sometime i will break my promise also..i know those feeling, is not rely good.. but i understand of it....those thing i pass through it be4.. and i know how it feeling on you too...

all i can say is sorry, i know sorry no cure... but i will still say sorry, sorry for everything i do, what i say, what i see, what i hear, and just everything of it.

i may not be prefect, may not be attention to detail, may not be caring enough. just what i will say,(***)

that all i can say...

i know other will see my blog too, but i know love is not easy to say it out, maybe you all will say me duno what is love, but do you know what i get through with her through to this one and a half year relationship. a lot...reli a lot ....

mayb i say it out you all also dun believe it, but i have been go through it...and i know still got a lot of challenge to go..not easy, will be hard...i know that too...exam exam exam...pass 1 by 1...

sorry for just now what i ask, i know it will hurt you and you will think that i still not believe on you..

what i wish to say now is(i love you)