8 nov 2011

today i receive a mail again...when i 1st saw it, i know(haiz) again...not sien izzit?

duno he...started i dun wish to tell her about this mail i receive, dun wish to let her know about this d. because when she know about this, it will make the day down d.. but i decided to tell her about this mail...

i know you ask me dun listen what he say or what he write, but what he write is just wish to punch him in the face. i know myself..

i should not ask you those thing because i know after i ask about it, your mood will down, although you say you ok, but i saw it and i can feel it, you are not ok with it. 

i know my month is not really how to turn right or left, just go straight to the point, hurting people straight away. without think about any consequences, each time also like that, i trying to change myself because of that, but i not lie to you also...really d..

that is truth...

i know you not so believe on me about this thing.. but what i can do is just put my faith to you, do all the action let you see it that i still have believe in you...it need time to prove that, trust is not easy to make, i know..break it is easy within few second can do it.

that why i will prove it to you let you believe that i believe on you....

dun say you break your promise, i know that sometime i will break my promise also..i know those feeling, is not rely good.. but i understand of it....those thing i pass through it be4.. and i know how it feeling on you too...

all i can say is sorry, i know sorry no cure... but i will still say sorry, sorry for everything i do, what i say, what i see, what i hear, and just everything of it.

i may not be prefect, may not be attention to detail, may not be caring enough. just what i will say,(***)

that all i can say...

i know other will see my blog too, but i know love is not easy to say it out, maybe you all will say me duno what is love, but do you know what i get through with her through to this one and a half year relationship. a lot...reli a lot ....

mayb i say it out you all also dun believe it, but i have been go through it...and i know still got a lot of challenge to go..not easy, will be hard...i know that too...exam exam exam...pass 1 by 1...

sorry for just now what i ask, i know it will hurt you and you will think that i still not believe on you..

what i wish to say now is(i love you)    

2 nov 2011

Really starting seldom write blog le lo..

dun ask me why d, just when i have the mood to write then i will write it down...

what happen, a lot thing happen....really a lot....

wanna say it out, dun wish too...

who am i?

do i like keep myself(内向), maybe that is me, who am i...

i be positive all the way, positive...

what to do...

other will stab me at the back...do i do wrong anything?

i aso duno...

haiz..dun say about it, now i just do bek my own part for it..

am i doing to great and jealous by other people?

i duno also...

ok then..end...end it....

remember this song...k?

remember the lyric oh...

this 1 you can keep it on your mind d oh..permanent...dun think wrongly, dun say sorry le...

i know you will read my blog...

give you a 谜语:

农夫养10头牛，只有19只角，为什么？

let you figure it out the answer....

tell me next time the answer la...

i sure you can't get the answer.. 

18 oct 2011

2day duno what happen to me...like every bad thing 1 shot happen to me and i cant even control my temper today...

my company want to extend my employment today...after i hear what they say the fault i make, i cant even believe on that, i never do that but what they is like my fault, i not agree on that, not even agree on it...

i not happy with the result of extend my confirmation...because of those reason i extend....not fair at all.

not even hear my explanation...what to do, depend on me...tahan la....

then after the thing happen, another come out again, this angry not cool yet another have come out....walao...my temper just bust out...

i have a bit over to her, i know...i ask so many question, this and that...

not i not believe on it, just that guy i reli tot he duno anything, but what he say just like know what happening.

WTF.....now i have a reli confused now..what should i do now...what should i do now...

now she sure is thinking i not believe on her, but i not, because of my temper make me cant even think properly..2nd time happen already...reli useless ....useless...useless ah....

now my head is just reli reli fan fan fan fan fan fan..........ahhh....

tot 2nite i can chat with her about this, but now, on what happen just now...dun think so...now i duno should tell her ornt...about my work...if i told, what her will react? 

sorry for my uncontrollable temper just now...reli sory for my temper...i cant even control my little temper....reli no use...sorry... 

11 oct 2011

2day i wake up as usual, (6am), i working at 8am, why i so early wake up?

haha...because i tis time wake up then can go out, but 2day just lay on bed until 7am oli go downstair.

not use to it. one day oli already not use to it..

YOU YOU YOU...i'm saying you...looking at my blog la...bite you ah... blek...

if you dare come bite me... :P

bite me 

bite me 

bite me

bite me

bite me

10 oct 2011

you know that 2day you sleep that time you have making 梦话, although i cant hear what you say, but i know that something have bother your sleeping, making you have bad dream.

i beside you, mayb i cant feel what you feel, but i know that you are disapointed, scare, sad, not happy...this kind of thing making u down.

what can i say? what can i do?

i pray for you, this thing will settle soon, just be patient...not who, not when, just something special will happen....and i will be beside you that time....

dun worry...

k???

10 OCT 2011

Today is worry day, how say.yesterday midnite,she wake up at the midnite of time, she gastric again...i didn't saw the message, until i suddenly wake up from bed, duno why i wake up middle of nite, then i go take my phone and see, got 1 message..@@

i wonder who will send me message during middle of night, then i open it up, found up that she message me at midnite, so late not yet sleep? so bad lo...bad bad kids, i reply the message it. i was worrying so late she not yet sleep, sure something is happen.

After that i abit kind cannot sleep also. hoping time pass faster morning, then is morning , i go to her house fetch her. i was not ask what happen, cos when i look at her i know if is she sad, not happy, no energy or anything. i know she very sleepy, so i not asking her anything. just let her rest at car 1st.

rest as long as she want,  she have few time gastric at nite, maybe de to nite hungry, making her grastric.

bibi...you oh...i'm healthy le, you so weak le...come win me back, healthy then me lo...you win i will listen to what you want. promise??

if you see this, tell me la...promise...

2 Oct 2011

this song remind me alot...

it remind me when before we been in relationship, until we in relationship, until now too.

dunno why, when i hear this so, it gan dong me...hear it remind so much think, all the picture like slide show flash in my mind.

when before i in relationship with her, we was colleague, that time i shy shy infront her d, scare talking with her, but....now can see lo, she my GF lo...haha...reli unexpected rite???

how to say?? erm...when we meet face to face, we have little chat between us, but in sms that time, is alot..now?? both also have it...haha...funny le...

reli alot alot alot thing flash into my mind after i hear this song....

TQ TQ...to You...

but i promise is promise, no matter how much i busy is, i still will accompany you go shopping, watch movie, dinner, pak tou, gai gai, go travel and many many more oh...