蔡旻佑 - 怎麼愛你都不夠

this song is no matter how love you still not enough..

A1
看 妳睡在我的胸口 - like just now you sick but still wan die me...
為什麼 這一刻讓我好 感動 -  suddenly feel touch

我 想我孤獨了很久 - no alone for almost 3 year
一碰到幸福就 惶 恐 - never feel love 3 years before meet you

B
當我 快要放棄我 - sometimes i wanted to let go myself
是妳讓我發現我存在的理由 - but thinking about you make me stronger. (Thanks you)

C1
怎麼愛妳都 不夠 - Feel that i never love you enough (cont increase everyday) Hehe!! dun paiseh ya
怎麼愛都沒 盡頭 - Had never endless

我在妳的生命中執著 - i fighting to survives
直到我一無所有 - i have be poor during a time. but i survive on it.
還牽著妳的手 - still holding your hand

怎麼愛妳都 不夠
怎麼愛都沒 盡頭
妳在我的世界裡溫柔 - you let me feel comfortable
什麼話都不用說 - you nonid say anything(i know d) hehe
其實妳全都懂 - i think you know it le ba..

我怎麼愛妳都 不 夠 

A2
聽 妳的呼吸告訴我 - i know what you wanted to do.
沒有人 像妳愛我一樣獨特 - you love me difference from other people
我 不去想從今以後 - i do not think about the past(sad part forget edi)
因為怎麼愛都 不 夠

B
當我 快要放棄我
是妳讓我發現我存在的理由 - you are the reason i want to fighting.

C2
怎麼愛妳都 不夠
怎麼愛都沒 盡頭
我在妳的生命中執著
直到我一無所有 
還牽著妳的手

怎麼愛妳都 不夠
想要給妳的還是 太多

把我的一切掏空 - even i poor, no money, i still wanted to see you happy..

怎麼愛妳都 不夠
怎麼愛都沒 盡頭
我在妳的生命中執著
直到我一無所有 
還牽著妳的手

怎麼愛妳都 不夠
想要給妳的還是 太多

把我的一切掏空
交換你最美的笑容 - if can exchange you smile then i happy also
永遠都不會放手 - i wont let go my hand on you.
怎麼愛你都不夠 - cause i still not love you enough yet...

almost 3 years old le oh...time pass so fast..

do not cry ya..haha

If you don't know me by now...

i watch this drama,drama just okok only, but i catch up with this song... feeling so good...thinking about the past we been through..

The feeling just so difference...the music is just peaceful, making me thinking about it again...all the happy, sad, angry, emo, crazy together that we have been through...

the memory just so much...甜酸苦辣 that we been through..

what we have argue about..what i have emo about...wat crazy thing we do it together, what happy thing i do with you..what sad thing that i cause you.. what thing making you emo about..

listen to the lyric:

If you don't know me by now
You'll never, never, never know me
All the things that we've been through
You should understand me
Like I understand you
Now baby I know the difference
Between right and wrong
I ain't gonna do nothin'
To bring out our happy home
Oh, don't get so excited
When I come home a little late at night
Cause we only act like children
When we argue, fuss and fight
If you don't know me by now
if you don't know me
You'll never, never, never know me
no you won't get to know me
If you don't know me by now
if you don't know me
You'll never, never, never know me oh......
We all got our own funny moods
I've got mine
Baby, you got yours too
Now just trust in me
Like I trust in you
As long as we've been together
That should be so easy to do
Just get yourself together
Or we might as well say good-bye
What good is a love affair
When we can't see eye-to-eye oh.....

it vry nice rite...haha...

remember what impression i done to you just now, until you laugh die me until like that....haha...

miss that smile alot..

making me tears drop abit..when listen to this song...


== kidding...

(D***, Y** k*** that i L*** Y** S* M*** d) Remember that if you find out what i write on there...remember it...and remember what i write on your laptop d lo...REMEMBER It...

i regret for what i have just do...

i should never say that in a first place....i was regret after what i have say... there are no turning back after what i have say..i should thinks before talk..but i did it again... sorry..i know this wont help anything...sorry isn't cure for everything...sorry cant help thing go back...sorry cant make her happy.. but i can tell you i love you...that is real..is real 101% from me..

3 Feb 2012

now is Feb lo...
The CNY feeling almost over...but this Cny does give me any special but boring...damn boring compare last year...Why...dunno..haiz...

these few day i have emo suddenly...some is due to her..i dunno what i emo-ing also..just know that my feeling not so good...saw her like that i not happy also...i could just laugh in-front her but i cant do that...i just cant hide anything from her...cannot pretend like nothing happen before...but i have to do that..cos she are more problem compare with me...

one day i go ioi, buying stationary..when i walking back to from there, i saw what i does not want to saw d thing...on that time i was wanted to go in front he and ask why you here...but i was not doing that...cause i do not want for my action then become not happy between me and you...i do not wish that..i do not want because this thing we have a argue again...i dun wish it...if can i will forget everything... pretend like i not see every situation...hold it to my heart oli...dun wan tell out, then will not have any argument between us... like that will be more better? can saw you happily..

that day v were talking heart to heart...she told me about what kent said...he say we are like beach that wont even can survive for one waves...reli?? sure no la...when she hear that, she sure will down/ stun/sad for that time, but after few day oli tell me...i know she have reason...dun wan make me down on the same time...but i not oh...cos i do not think v are so easy crush by a wave oli...

Dear i saw this on Fb on that day...dun worry...if we can do that, sure no problem d ma...rite?? dun think gt d nothing d to yourself....k? you always think that...now just saw this sentence below...i know i not fulfilled all  the condition..but i have learning d oh...
⒈信任
⒉坦誠
⒊寬容
⒋理解
⒌空間
⒍珍惜
⒎想念

i know you will see my blog once a while...but believe me, i just wanted to express myself, make me one of the release problem here...you don't put it all in your heart..k?? will get heart attack soon if like that...or 心脏衰弱 d...you know??? so please do not hide it to yourself... express out d...

today i just do a most stupid day in the world....most stupid man ever...

i show her the pic...

a man that will never do that...but i do that...why??

i dun1 hide anything from her... that the truth...i promise myself that i nt hide anything from her...

but i never know that the truth is so painful..

sorry i making you so down...

14 jan 2012

is a very long time i didn't update my blog already...

haiz...

i wish to go to the beach...that place can cool me down...seeing so huge of water without any boundaries... and i wanted to shout to it until i cant shout ...cos when i shout to the sea, it wont reply my shout...saying that i so noisy or anything, i can shout out all the thing that i dun wish to put in my head...sea...a place that full of water...

a place that have no boundaries...a place that have no limit...sometime it will angry...sometime can cold like ice...sometime so angry like tsunami...it reli scary...but when u deep inside it...you can feel anything...u will just hear....a quite sound...that you couldn't found it in any place...

so long i didnt think of wanted to go to the beach...suddenly have a thought wanna go beach... same like her, last time when she nt happy or stress, she will go to swimming...cos swimming can refresh her up...cheer her up...mayb because like this i started influence by her...but i duno how to swimming, just different place, she will go to swimming but i will stand of the beach without swimming....watching the water come and go..feel so nice for me....

this few week not my week...and her too...i can saw her...not reli have good mood...stress...worrrying....sick...and got unwanted person...disturbing

i miss last time...but i know is pass already, now is now, time wont turn back for you, or anyone...wat we face will we will need to face it infront...run away is nt a solution...just you postpone the problem, at the end this problem still will come...like snow ball, when it roll down from the cliff, starting is small but if stop it on start it wont roll bigger, but if you let it roll and roll , it will getting bigger and bigger, until you can stop by yourself..and it will go destroy everything...

i know this few day not a happy day...dun worry i will told you everything that i know...that i feel...cos you are my closes...in other word...marry to me edi...i know u was worry me...what i will think...be patient...wait until CNY pass and it will over...i know he will do many little thing, disturbing my frd...but i have no prove saying that he doin it...then i just wait and see...a man doing so little thing...in other word(小人)...grow so big already bt still...have no...B***N...

people have no ***** what should i follow he become no B**** together...stupid...

dear..i know you will see this blog, dun worry i be fine( i always say that) same to you ...you also say  like that too...but both of us know well...still will worrying each other... i told you everything that i know...i saw you this few day also not reli happy also...what i can do...take care you more..i duno how to cheers u up, but...try my best...although i do many thing wrong...i say sorry to you...sorry sorry...sometimes my word will hurt you...too straight forward..duno how to bend my word...

i will be cheers up, and you also d.. i wish to see last time d pearl...you know what i mean...last time d pearl....

16 dec 2011

just left 15 days then 2012 is coming, so fast a year have past...

during a year what you have do? what you have achieve?

what you have done?

me? haha... quiet a lot too...

many thing is happening...even now too...our relationship is getting closer and closer, although during this year alot of thing is happen..

let see after Chinese new year...what are the result..

yesterday i had a nicer dream ever...can say it until now... how to say it..but now starting getting abit blur blur...so i better write it down before reli gone..  i goes back to secondary school.. but she also at secondary school, included all my friend and her friend too... the feeling in the dream are just warm, and i feel that i can feel the feeling during that time...how to say the feeling i have...erm...reli just hard...just i duno to describe it...not happy, and for sure nt sad too...just enjoy, and i can i wish to get into the dream again...

in the dream i meet her, in secondary school... impossible rite!! cos i different school with her.. but in the dream i can see her face again...when she smile it...that moment..enjoy wot her friend...run here and there, just like a kids...what i doing in that time? haha

i just watching it...saw her when she at secondary school...erm...the rest is sudenly my alarm wakes me up...F*** the alarm...why always wake me up during the nice part...i miss the dream so much..do you know that...although my secondary school are different..but in the dream are just prefect..

TQTQ...to you...and giving me alot learning during this year...i have grow up in some part...but still have many still need improve.. MY EQ have improve or nt le???

you tell me...

lastly...i wish tell you something...

that is ...

my brithday is near, ready my present.. : p

saw the last part.... i love you....i mean it(serious face)

28 nov 2011

Yesterday i went to mid valley watch movie, long time no watch at night...really unforgettable.

yesterday i go watch this movie, i know i know, this movie is on cinema for a long time but why now only go watch it, i like it ah...BLEK....

whole movie is ok la..but few part are unforgettable, because why?

you wan to know which part?

haha...dun tell you all better...

 is on railway d, what it say make me remember it back what she say.

just saw what she write on her blog, rely rely so po lai .....

you know what i mean, i promise to you that i will follow the promise i gave it to you...wont forget it...you  also ah....dun ever forget it ah..if not.....you will know the Consequence 

haha...

you never say it on blog d but you say it too...i will say it same to you..

i love you

another trick for you, guess it

一个黑大汉，腰插两把扇， 走一步，扇几扇。(猜动物）

25 nov 2011

This 2 day i busy helping move to new house..

me move to new house??

sure no d..i dun have so much money to move to new house, during this 2 day i was helping pearl and her family move furniture to her new house, it was a lot thing to pack...need 2 day to pack all the thing to the new house.

i enjoy with the process with her, i dun mind we not going out dating or what. but i can be with her i already happy for it...the feeling is different...and i enjoy it so much.

her new house is big and nice, especially her new room..i like it...

next time my house will be like tat too, but will be more bigger..can put a lot of thing that we both like.

during this 2 day i know i have make few mistake and make her angry to me, i sorry about it....most of the mistake i shouldn't do it...but i still do it.

sorry for it...i really sorry for it.

有一隻熊走過(猜四個字成語)

8 nov 2011

today i receive a mail again...when i 1st saw it, i know(haiz) again...not sien izzit?

duno he...started i dun wish to tell her about this mail i receive, dun wish to let her know about this d. because when she know about this, it will make the day down d.. but i decided to tell her about this mail...

i know you ask me dun listen what he say or what he write, but what he write is just wish to punch him in the face. i know myself..

i should not ask you those thing because i know after i ask about it, your mood will down, although you say you ok, but i saw it and i can feel it, you are not ok with it. 

i know my month is not really how to turn right or left, just go straight to the point, hurting people straight away. without think about any consequences, each time also like that, i trying to change myself because of that, but i not lie to you also...really d..

that is truth...

i know you not so believe on me about this thing.. but what i can do is just put my faith to you, do all the action let you see it that i still have believe in you...it need time to prove that, trust is not easy to make, i know..break it is easy within few second can do it.

that why i will prove it to you let you believe that i believe on you....

dun say you break your promise, i know that sometime i will break my promise also..i know those feeling, is not rely good.. but i understand of it....those thing i pass through it be4.. and i know how it feeling on you too...

all i can say is sorry, i know sorry no cure... but i will still say sorry, sorry for everything i do, what i say, what i see, what i hear, and just everything of it.

i may not be prefect, may not be attention to detail, may not be caring enough. just what i will say,(***)

that all i can say...

i know other will see my blog too, but i know love is not easy to say it out, maybe you all will say me duno what is love, but do you know what i get through with her through to this one and a half year relationship. a lot...reli a lot ....

mayb i say it out you all also dun believe it, but i have been go through it...and i know still got a lot of challenge to go..not easy, will be hard...i know that too...exam exam exam...pass 1 by 1...

sorry for just now what i ask, i know it will hurt you and you will think that i still not believe on you..

what i wish to say now is(i love you)    

2 nov 2011

Really starting seldom write blog le lo..

dun ask me why d, just when i have the mood to write then i will write it down...

what happen, a lot thing happen....really a lot....

wanna say it out, dun wish too...

who am i?

do i like keep myself(内向), maybe that is me, who am i...

i be positive all the way, positive...

what to do...

other will stab me at the back...do i do wrong anything?

i aso duno...

haiz..dun say about it, now i just do bek my own part for it..

am i doing to great and jealous by other people?

i duno also...

ok then..end...end it....

remember this song...k?

remember the lyric oh...

this 1 you can keep it on your mind d oh..permanent...dun think wrongly, dun say sorry le...

i know you will read my blog...

give you a 谜语:

农夫养10头牛，只有19只角，为什么？

let you figure it out the answer....

tell me next time the answer la...

i sure you can't get the answer.. 

18 oct 2011

2day duno what happen to me...like every bad thing 1 shot happen to me and i cant even control my temper today...

my company want to extend my employment today...after i hear what they say the fault i make, i cant even believe on that, i never do that but what they is like my fault, i not agree on that, not even agree on it...

i not happy with the result of extend my confirmation...because of those reason i extend....not fair at all.

not even hear my explanation...what to do, depend on me...tahan la....

then after the thing happen, another come out again, this angry not cool yet another have come out....walao...my temper just bust out...

i have a bit over to her, i know...i ask so many question, this and that...

not i not believe on it, just that guy i reli tot he duno anything, but what he say just like know what happening.

WTF.....now i have a reli confused now..what should i do now...what should i do now...

now she sure is thinking i not believe on her, but i not, because of my temper make me cant even think properly..2nd time happen already...reli useless ....useless...useless ah....

now my head is just reli reli fan fan fan fan fan fan..........ahhh....

tot 2nite i can chat with her about this, but now, on what happen just now...dun think so...now i duno should tell her ornt...about my work...if i told, what her will react? 

sorry for my uncontrollable temper just now...reli sory for my temper...i cant even control my little temper....reli no use...sorry... 

11 oct 2011

2day i wake up as usual, (6am), i working at 8am, why i so early wake up?

haha...because i tis time wake up then can go out, but 2day just lay on bed until 7am oli go downstair.

not use to it. one day oli already not use to it..

YOU YOU YOU...i'm saying you...looking at my blog la...bite you ah... blek...

if you dare come bite me... :P

bite me 

bite me 

bite me

bite me

bite me

10 oct 2011

you know that 2day you sleep that time you have making 梦话, although i cant hear what you say, but i know that something have bother your sleeping, making you have bad dream.

i beside you, mayb i cant feel what you feel, but i know that you are disapointed, scare, sad, not happy...this kind of thing making u down.

what can i say? what can i do?

i pray for you, this thing will settle soon, just be patient...not who, not when, just something special will happen....and i will be beside you that time....

dun worry...

k???

10 OCT 2011

Today is worry day, how say.yesterday midnite,she wake up at the midnite of time, she gastric again...i didn't saw the message, until i suddenly wake up from bed, duno why i wake up middle of nite, then i go take my phone and see, got 1 message..@@

i wonder who will send me message during middle of night, then i open it up, found up that she message me at midnite, so late not yet sleep? so bad lo...bad bad kids, i reply the message it. i was worrying so late she not yet sleep, sure something is happen.

After that i abit kind cannot sleep also. hoping time pass faster morning, then is morning , i go to her house fetch her. i was not ask what happen, cos when i look at her i know if is she sad, not happy, no energy or anything. i know she very sleepy, so i not asking her anything. just let her rest at car 1st.

rest as long as she want,  she have few time gastric at nite, maybe de to nite hungry, making her grastric.

bibi...you oh...i'm healthy le, you so weak le...come win me back, healthy then me lo...you win i will listen to what you want. promise??

if you see this, tell me la...promise...

2 Oct 2011

this song remind me alot...

it remind me when before we been in relationship, until we in relationship, until now too.

dunno why, when i hear this so, it gan dong me...hear it remind so much think, all the picture like slide show flash in my mind.

when before i in relationship with her, we was colleague, that time i shy shy infront her d, scare talking with her, but....now can see lo, she my GF lo...haha...reli unexpected rite???

how to say?? erm...when we meet face to face, we have little chat between us, but in sms that time, is alot..now?? both also have it...haha...funny le...

reli alot alot alot thing flash into my mind after i hear this song....

TQ TQ...to You...

but i promise is promise, no matter how much i busy is, i still will accompany you go shopping, watch movie, dinner, pak tou, gai gai, go travel and many many more oh... 

28 sep 2011

yesterday i was piss off...why?? dun wish to tell...do and do and do and do but still wrong...at last used back the 1st to do..that time reli beh tahan, but i control my temper, not show it in front her...

when finish work,i go meet her, because why, when i meet her my temper will cool down, not cool down, is gone.. every time also the same. 来的快去的快....

yesterday she say have something to tell me, i wonder what is it..actually is say i perasan, why?

because my last blog have mention that (if you read my blog tell me izzit i'm perasan).  haha, i duno that she so fast read my blog already, cant guess it..

this time i dun1 write too much...

let me ask you another question...

a day, a mother buy 2 pair of underwear, but this mother have 3 children, name is DO, RE,and ME, mother give the 2 underwear to Do and RE, left who not yet get it??? tell me...

26 sep 2011

today as usual i fetching her to school, 2day she wearing tank top to school and bring the jacket to school also, long time didn't see her bring the jacket to school le oh....hehe

as usual she will sleep a while before start school, then she go for school and i going for my work. 2day duno is lucky or what le, she forget to bring her house key to school actually she forget and put it in my car for few day edi, 2day she remember it that she put it in my car, but she no take it down when she get off the car,then i promise her that i will bring it t school later during my lunch time.

when i break that time, i get her call, but her voice just a bit down, because normally i will hear different voice tone from her, and i thinking something are wrong with her today, so i make a decisions to find out lo. 

before she get in to my car i look at her face, and i know that she lose her mood, when she get in to my car, i ask her what happen, then she tell me allot, and i know what is happening now.

why my friend will treat me like that?? i sure you will asking yourself now... how to say it...erm...human selfishness ..every person deep inside of them self will have a thing call selfishness...erm, i duno how to describe it d..just a experience for it, then you will grow up for it, because you have experience it. thinking all the thing is positive way. is a good positive thinking.

you have high EQ oh, remember that, you say that you will fa pi qi just with me oli..haha...i duno le..if i say no you will believe?? if i say yes you will believe?? haha...both i also dun wan say it...Blek... let you guess your self.. i not mind you fa pi qi infront me d, because i have positive thinking of it..hehe...

when you reading my blog, i ask you a question...am i perasan people??? you tell me la...hehe..tell me straight away after you read my blog ah..k?

20 sep 2011

Is me again, 2 week no update my blog, now is the time to update my blog again....

on this 2 week quiet busy for me, allot thing to do, happy thing, not happy thing, want to do, do not want to do, just a lot la..dun wish to tell much on here. who know me better then will know..

2day i want ask, whether i a person that easy get 动摇 by other people?? 

dun ask me why i ask like that? every1 have alot question, that why i ask you, izzit?? do i easy get influence by other people? ha-ha... dunno le.

i hear that she say (SELFISH）on that day,do you know what the meaning of this?? Is mean 只为自己打算,只图个人的利益,  understand??? know you will not understand it d la...i tell you...you always say that you are selfish, can i tell you that i also dunno le, but sometime you will think of other people feeling without care about your own self feeling, this not call selfish. OK? this call 为他人着想，not selfish kayyy... 

do i 中坏 you? erm...a bit gua..every1 will do like that d, not ma???

just wish to happy, sure dun unhappy thing happen d lo...for me if i treat you bad, how??? you dun like d ma. for me aso dun like d...same...

1st time see she drunk, just half cup then she started to pening already, but at last she drink 1 cup and half of it, what happen? she blur blur lo, reli blur, the detail i know it then ok...other nonid to know it..hehe

i have alot thing to write,  but duno how to write it...nvm la...write next time, or tell her oli..hehe...but you all cannot know what i tell her..blek...

6 Sep 2011

Quiet sometime i no update my blog....dun ask me why, maybe forget about it already...

but today sudenlly remember it back, so i write it back..

2day i have a feeling, duno what feeling is that..just feel that something is not right..

but i could not tell it out...just the feel thinking that something is not right...

i think is not a good sign..

but i just cant remember what is the problem...but she today feel like not like her, maybe because too tired of the thing lately..yesterday we chat alot at nite until so late dun feel wan to sleep.

just now saw her post, what she write, i think i can know it who's about...he kacau her again, can say like end 1 thing another raise up...not he but is another he..she have tell me that he looking for her back. trying to make her world from happy to not happy.

plus this semester not easy for her, quiet a lot homework to do, exam, assigment and many many more....how can i help her?? some1 tell me??? i know she will settle it, but alone and i will worry about it.

not just for me worry, if for other people also will do the same thing as me...maybe i should trying to pray for it, let see how god will do it or give some tips for me to have solution for it...let her relax, feel comfortable...not stressing...

life is not easy...is true...not easy...have high and down..but not always high and also not always down...wei...tell you...i also have down time be4, and you have seen it, now is going up now..cont rising...you also can have same with me, cont rising..Every1 have the emotion...if dun have emotion how to we have feeling.. if dun have feeling how come you or me or he or she or every1. like that every1 will be like robot without feeling or emotion.

you dun wish to be like that rite?? if  you wish i will hit ur butt..feeling and emotion is important for a person, it can be happy, smile, laugh, maybe sometime angry,sad, down..is reli different to have that compare with a robot.

dun how to write anymore...BYE